Falling back, and a second chance
What if you were given a second chance in life? Would you take it?
Some say that I live on the wild side of life. Others assume I have a taste for adventure, and maybe that I’m a high sensation seeker. I’m not here to debate that, but I will tell you this experience had nothing to do with adventure!
My family and friends haven’t even heard this story, so they’re in for a shock! It all basically started after I found God in a radical way. Even though I was certain Jesus is alive and that He is a personal God, I slipped and fell back into temptation. I’m by no means perfect. I still fail miserably! Thanks be to God for being so forgiving!
In 2005, after living at my dad’s house for less than a year, I began doing drugs again. I know, I know! How could somebody fall so hard again after experiencing so many incredible miracles like I had? Clearly I’m hardheaded!
The drug I was tempted with was just some speed to give me a “boost” at work. But this speed was methamphetamine (meth), which is probably worse than heroin. Meth can break your body down so fast that all your teeth can be rotten after a year, and then your body shrinks to the size of a toothpick!
God Saves Drug Dealers
Glory to God, I did not stay on meth for too long! I still have all my pearly whites (teeth), and I didn’t fry my brain during that time of my life. Instead, I took a wild adventure and had a sideswipe with eternity!
Before I went to work, I pulled an all-nighter, staying awake and trying to enjoy myself on these drugs. I left for work early in the morning, still pumped with energy and ready to stay busy to burn off all this juice.
During my lunch break at 12:00 noon, I went to the restroom to snort some more meth, but I couldn’t because I had run out. Now I only had to make it to 3:30 PM, then take a short drive home so I could relax. I didn’t think that would be hard at all. I was only 18 years old and still full of energy, despite the drugs in my system! I did begin to drag at work, but I was very excited when the bell rang to close down the warehouse!
I did take some pride in building these carburetors for hot rods, but the day was done and I was going home! So I got into my 200SX import, threw on my glasses, and stormed onto the back-road highways. The drive home was only 20 minutes of scenic mountains, with fresh air blowing in my face. There were very few cars on the road, and enough twisty roads to entertain me and my two-door sports car!
God, Please Save Me!
Just a couple of miles from my house, I passed out in the car! Anybody who is familiar with meth knows that once you fall asleep after such a long “high,” there isn’t much of a chance of waking up. While writing this, I’m still getting goose bumps, because I should’ve been dead!
While I was passed out, my car began to swerve toward oncoming traffic in the other lane. We were both likely going the speed limit of 60 mph, which could’ve resulted in a 120 mph collision!
Seconds, and I mean seconds, before I would have collided, I lifted my head up off my chest and jerked the wheel back into my lane! Immediately, I knew it was God who woke me up! I had nearly taken somebody else’s life, and possibly their family’s too. Now wide awake, I drove home asking God to forgive me.
Once I got to the house, I sat down on the sofa and made a vow never to do that drug again. I should have vowed to stay off all drugs, but thankfully I didn’t, because then I would have broken that vow! Wow, I’m so hardheaded, but God has given me more chances than I could count, let alone write about.
Grace means getting something that you do not deserve. It is unmerited favor, and it has clearly been overflowing in my life!
And after you have suffered a little while, the God of all grace, who has called you to his eternal glory in Christ, will himself restore, confirm, strengthen, and establish you. 1st Peter 5:10
Read about how I radically found God through the suicidal thoughts I had months before this!
Do you know if you’re going to heaven? Want to be sure? It’s very simple, and it couldn’t be easier! He loves us so much that He made it possible just by believing in Him and saying the salvation prayer.