Are you wondering how to die? I’m going to share with you a personal story, then solve the problem that millions of people are trying to figure out!
In the beginning… I was a child as I was being feed milk in a figurative perspective, that I didn’t know what this life was for. I took everything for granted especially when life got hard. At a young age, I was like so many others who were raised in a broken home then bombarded by peer pressure. I’m sure you can see where all this is going but I’ll skip the sappy stuff and just get to the point. I was a down south Georgia rebel, doing what I want, living on my own rules. I began smoking weed when I was around 15 then that opened up a whole new world to me. I began going to parties and enjoying getting high to drown out all the worries of life (I know how can a 14 yr/ old have worries).
When I turned 17, I had it all figured out. Haha! I was able to party and make money at the same time and not have to work anymore. Truly this was the life or so I thought, but in reality, I was just washing away my personality, and trying to mellow out the pain. It really was only a placebo effect covering up the problem, not ever fixing the real void that I felt deep inside though. It couldn’t be fixed with drugs, sex or anything else that this world had to offer. Don’t judge me as I’m not trying to go off in a long spiel of how awful I was but when I make my point you’ll see why I’ve explained all of this, and thankfully I never got any diseases or kids as I don’t know what would of come of me.
Suicidal Thoughts
Well, somewhere around 17 I had given up on trying to graduate and got myself kicked out of my step dad’s house because I had broken their last straw, I had been caught again. Haha! Because I had really broken things up between my family. I didn’t even try to call my dad and I took a backpack full of some cloths and other stuff and then walked down town Marietta to where some of my buddies would hang out, became better friends with one of my school mates at a Star Bucks over there and offered him a job to drive me around and help me sell drugs. So he took the offer and even gave me a place to stay then I partied even harder then before. I had no reasons to sneak out or hide anything. There were no rules and I had everything I needed so I thought. I was selling quarter pounds of weed and some other stuff here and there making more money than the average worker. I had no reason to quit, but life changed in an instant…
I was drunk on the Marta after getting out of a concert at willow five points and so was my room mate. He wasn’t as bad off as me and was able to drive but he had a new 300z and hit it hard around a corner and over steered causing us to hit a fence and getting stuck on a 4×4 post. We were unable to get this car over the 4×4 post so we could get home, and well, got caught trying to hide from the cops. He went to jail and I blew in the breathalyzer and was completely drunk but being a mile away from my house, they took me home. In the state of Georgia we have a zero tolerance law and I should have gone to jail. Also I was on probation and should have gone to jail and stayed there but they didn’t realize that.
The next morning I was kicked out from his family and went back to square one trying to find a place to live once again. But being at that age I could never get a job cause I was taken out of school (not my will) and I was emancipated so I was considered a legal adult. Though I couldn’t get a permanent work and the emancipation letter did me no good to get hired. I also wasn’t able to get a hold of any drugs even when I had been able to make hundreds in one night, I was completely broke and felt deserted. I spent a night at one of the local parties then the following day attempted to sleep in the back of the woods behind a Save Rite. This time was different though, I had come to the end of my rope. I didn’t want to continue this life, it had the fire exhausted for living. I just wanted life to end but at that moment, I thought about the end of life and if there was an end or just another beginning of an afterlife. I was raised in a Christian home but I didn’t see God in my home. If anything happens to my family, I feel apart and I blamed God for it.
I Want To Die
At that moment, stranded in the woods, I began to realize that there was no point to go on if there wasn’t a God. This world was too cruel and there is no hope. I began to pray on my hands and knees asking God, asking Jesus to send me a place to live, food to eat, and a job. If memory doesn’t serves me correctly I even made a promise to serve Him, if He would provide for me and give me new life. As any man who comes to the end of their rope it leaves them broken, I prayed for about 5 minutes of a powerful prayer in tears and asking for Jesus to change me, change my life and give me new hope and a new home. Then the moment I said “Amen” somebody yelled MY NAME! I completely lost my composure! I thought the devil was out to get me! I grabbed my backpack and peaked outside the woods looking to see if it was Reco (the man who wanted to kill me). But to my surprise it wasn’t the devil, and it wasn’t Reco!
How to Die to Myself
Turn to me and be saved, all you ends of the earth; for I am God, and there is no other. – Isaiah 45:22
A friend of mine came to the rescue or should I say God sent him to rescue me *wink*. I was invited to stay at his house for a week and the whole time I was there I was being asked by his mom to call up my folks. Though I had told her my mom and step dad kicked me out and my dad is getting remarried and his future wife wants nothing to do with me. Not only were they pounding me to call my parents, but I still wasn’t able to get any drugs! I thought about how to die just the day before, now I’m so confused! It may not sound profound to you as you might have not been in my shoes, but I knew everybody and I could get whatever I wanted whenever I wanted. There was nothing but one joint that we were able to get. I didn’t even feel the need to smoke it as it probably wouldn’t even have got me high. There was also this strange feeling inside me from the event that took place a couple days prior. I hadn’t told them but left it inside trying to figure this all out.
My Suicidal Thoughts Lead To Peace
Then I was asked again to call my folks, this time it rang in my head. I was curious what had come of my dad as I hadn’t even talked to him in over 6 months. So when I got a moment of piece, I ended up calling my dad, just so she’d leave me a lone. Inside I desired to move back in with my dad as we did, used to have a good relationship till I screwed things up. I called him and asked if I could move back in and told him I wanted to change. He said call me back in three days and so I did. That phone call was quick, he asked me where I was at the moment and came to pick me up after I agreed to not bring any drugs into his house. I had told them that no one knew where or how to contact me, for all they know is that I was shot and left in some ditch or had spit town looking for a new adventure as I was well known for pulling disappearing acts.
The very next day in the morning my dad took me to a place to get a job and the first place I had applied for. I got a job! Within 7 days, I had all of my prayers answered! Thing about it though is that it didn’t hit me like it does now, after I’ve had a moment to sit back and contemplate all the pieces of the puzzle and see how perfectly they fit.
The very next day I went to work and realized one of my good Christian friends that I was in the worship band in with working with me! Again when I say good friends, I pretty much mean best friends but us guys don’t talk like that. We had spent many hours at each others houses, raided each others refrigerators and playing pranks on all the family members. It was my long lost brother, to the point after another few years down the road when he got married I was his best man. We are still close friends and God had it all figured out to crossing every “t” and dotting every “i”. No small detail was left out but they all played a huge role in how God works in mysteries ways.
A few months when my dad and I were outside of church just talking about what had really happened, he had told me that he split up with his fiancee one week before I had called, which would have prevented me from moving in. It may sound sad that my dad had split up with her right before they were about to get married, but God was telling him this was not the one. And as I write this I can tell you my dad has found the right one for him and is happily married to a great women. Again all part of the greater plan.
Here is a trustworthy saying that deserves full acceptance: Christ Jesus came into the world to save sinners – of whom I am the worst. But for that very reason I was shown mercy so that in me, the worst of sinners, Christ Jesus might display his unlimited patience as an example for those who would believe on him and receive eternal life. – 1 Timothy 1:15-16
I had come from being a nobody who wasn’t thought or cared about, to being a blessed man of God. I wasn’t the worst of sinners like Apostle Paul, but I felt darn close. I now know this story of mine wasn’t meant for just for me, but to be a story of what Jesus wants to do to our lives, wants to completely wash us clean from our filth, and create in us a new heart. I plan to fulfill my promise even if I hadn’t made the promised to God, I’d still serve Him! This is the beginning of my story, the beginning to many more miracles yet to come, beginning of a real walk with Jesus; a personal relationship with Lord God Almighty, Amen!
Want to check out a story even more amazing than this? Take a trip with me to read about my near death experience when I had a serious motorcycle accident that left doctors challenging their own faith!
Do you want to know God in a personal way, like I know Him? Want to find out how to goto heaven? It’s very simple. It couldn’t be easier! He loves us so much that He made it possible just by believing in Him and saying the prayer of salvation.
Great Story Justin! I knew God is alive! Another miracle is documented! May this story go on for ever! God is with you Justin. He really is at your side guiding you. It really almost made me cry in the part you are in the woods and there you prayed hard.
I once committed suicide in my life too and it’s like it’s not a coincidence that I didn’t had the chance to fulfill it. For those who like to see another miracle, check out my blog at http://juzelalpadilla.wordpress.com/2011/03/21/miracle-of-god/
Thank you Juzel for the kind words, and yes God is very much alive. Read your blog and love what God is doing in your life! My words aren’t enough to describe God’s glory and His power.
“If my people, who are called by my name, will humble themselves and pray and seek my face and turn from their wicked ways, then will I hear from heaven and will forgive their sin and will heal their land. – 2nd Chronicles 7:14”
Justin no I really want to die! I wish He would destroy me and let me go!
Yea i get it. I was in so much pain when i shattered my leg in 25 places. I prayed that God take me everyday for a few months. But life is worth living especially when we find purpose in Jesus. Praying for you to be blessed and successful at everything you do.
is god really exits. i don,t feel it. my wife want to divorse me. no matter what i do. she still want to. my name is chong live in singapore. age 43. don,t earn much around 1.5k. after deduct cpf only 1.3. per month give her 700. expenses here expensive. we marry for 5years no baby yet. she fm china. only 3years ago got pr. i give her everything i can. she still not happy. now we sleep seperatelu. i want to die. don,t know how to please her. i got no friends.
Hey Chong,
I questioned whether God existed for a long time. I understand where your coming from. Life isn’t easy, especially when your sharing it with another person. I’m sure once you got married that it separated you more from your friends, but they will continue to be there for you. Nobody wants to see you suffer, let alone take your own life. I wish I had the right answers on what to tell your wife, but I don’t. I’m going to pray that God gives you wisdom, but I ask you to do the same. Seek God and He will reveal Himself. I promise that! It is my word! There is an English movie called “Fireproof” and I think you and your wife should watch it together. Its a very inspiring movie involving relationships. God bless!
Justin,
I want to divorce my husband for a longest time. We’ve been married for almost 17 years but has been miserable for at least 10 years now. we have 2 kids, one is 7 and another one turning 16. I have not guts of leaving him because of my kids. For many years he was hitting me, cursing almost everyday.Trying to do evrything just for him not to get mad. He works but only contractor. Right now he is not working but he gambles.This month he already lost $5k. If i mentioned it he will start going crazy hurt me physically and emotionally .Now i am thinking of committing suicide. Need help, please help. Tell me what to do.
Hey Len,
There is no way I can relate to your story, but I do relate to physical pain as I shattered my femur in a motorcycle accident http://45.79.203.169/life-after-death Although, I have been on the path towards suicide. It is def not the right choice for you to make. Though I don’t have the right one for you other then to seek God and let Him speak into your life. Now I don’t want to push religion, only the truth, and the truth is I see miracles nearly every week. Truth is God wants you and is willing to do a miracle in your family’s life. He is able to change husband’s life in radical ways. I believe this and will be praying for the two of you. Though I don’t endorse anything that he is doing. Nobody should be like your being treated, nobody. God really does love you, look at what He did to this drug dealer. How much more does He love you, one who is so much more precious and in need? I really want you too see this movie… http://www.magdalenamovie.com/ I think they have some good stuff from the site, but its for you! Praying for you!
Don’t worry about it, get your kids and yourself and get out of town , go somewhere he doesn’t know about, make him beg for forgiveness if not move on and never look back
I need help!!! I really want to die because I get bullied everyday and I don’t fit in plz tell me what to do
Abbigail,
I’m sorry your getting bullied. I know it’s not fun but you can seek for further help with family and friends. Don’t be silent. I’m praying for your wellbeing and that your able to find God. He is a loving God and can do all things. Praying for you! God bless!
youre god is not loving and even representatives of him are hypocritical, there are no miracles created by god because you dont need god for a miracle to happen. some are lucky and some are just down right cursed, the proof of this is the people you meet. its not a test of faith, especially if “he loves us”. after all if he did wouldnt he want us happy? his tests just cause people to lose faith and for some, hate him. i once prayed to him, want to know what happened? i faced hell without even dying first. so if he did exist then he shall know my hate, some things are just unforgivable when the person who caused it doesnt even try to apologise and its the same with god. prayers go unanswered because there is no one to listen, its not moderation and its not always “for their own good” i am proof of that.
p.s. the moderation takes forever for my previous message
There are many cardinal christians today. Meaning they are driven by their emotions, they are not lead by His Spirit. They are rarely different than the world. On their behalf I ask that you forgive us. We were not representing Jesus as He should be. I even ask that you forgive me for being so delayed in replying back to you. I have no excuse, I’m sorry.
The verse “for all things work for the good” has been seriously taken out of context. Lie number 1: God does not test us with sickness, death, etc. For it is satan who comes to steal, kill and destroy. That verse is talking about praying in tongues, and only applies to those who love Him. If God’s will was being done here on earth, then why would Jesus ask us to pray that His will be done? Because it’s not being done right now. Even in these same chapter in Romans 8, it talks about the earth “waiting for the manifestation of the sons of God”. You clearly haven’t meet many, if any. Who have manifested the Spirit of God within them? It produces fruit at the least and miracles follow those who believe (Scripture). Be blessed! I desire to know how can I further pray for you?
Justin Gilpen can you please pray for me…life is getting..you know
Thank you Jesus for guiding and protecting Sherwin in everything that he does. May his life echo that of yours Jesus just as the moon reflects the glory of the sun and may it be so in Sherwin’s life.
please, he got lucky. if he didnt then where was my miracle when i worshipped? ive experienced hell before im even dead. there are no words to describe how much i hate god, and if he wants to try to send me to hell or heaven then hes in for a fight. he doesnt even get the right to pass judgement on me even if he did create me, and he deserves every bit of my hate. and if i find myself about to die then ill take my own life because i will not die the way god intends i will die by my own way, and if he manages to force me into hell then i will fight my way out. if he takes me to heaven then i will hunt him down and fight him, i dont even care he is a god and neither do i care if i win or not.
I understand your burden and know that it can be tough when we lose a loved one or our miracle doesn’t come. It’s not His fault, because He gave us a way break any force of the enemy. For it is satan who comes to steal, kill or destroy…not God! God desires you to be blessed more than you desire it! Even now after your honest reply of hating God. He only wants the best for you. For it is the kindness of the Lord that leads us to repentance. God gave us His Spirit to dwell inside. The Spirit to guide our lives into righteousness and that the fruit of it would be love, joy, peace, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self control. Bless you with comfort in the dry and thirsty land. Bless you with finances and relationships that are lasting and true!
I am thankful to our God that He spared you, picked you up and set you on solid ground.
Blessings,
Uncle Alex
Thank you Alex! It is great to still be alive no doubt. Despite the times when I pray for a personal rapture, because I know there is more that is left to do.
God bless you and keep you!
Justin
Beautiful….Simply BEAUTIFUL, but why do I feel the way I do? Its seems as though I’ve lost the ability to express myself the way you do….
All the same, good with the bad I thank you.
Jus,
God has a plan for you…I believed that He has called you for a purpose..
I didn’t know you so well but Thank you for sharing your life to me..
God bless you and happy for you to take your DTS 🙂
Cristina
Thank you for the kind words Cristina. Its also an honor to be able to share my life story with all of you. God has made a difference in my life, and in return I hope my story can spark hope into others.
God bless!
hi
hey i just wanna say is all i used to think about was killing myself. Im not going to lie i still do. I guess want im asking is how do i hold on to my faith.
I kinda feel trapped in a world that doesn’t want me to survive, in knowing all of this its hard for me to know how to be patient. Got any tips?
-SMM
Hey Sade,
I know its not an easy thing, and I don’t pretend to have all the answers. There are just a few key points that I want to highlight that have drastically changed my life.
That is by first realizing that if you think the way you’ve always thought, then you’ll continue to get what you’ve always got. I wanted to have the peace that comes from God so I began to read the Bible and ask God how do I change my thinking. I know this is much easier said than done, but you are not alone in this.
“So then faith comes by hearing, and hearing by the word of God.” Romans 10:17
Another thing is to get plugged into a church. I know this one sounds cliche, but its really helped me in so many ways. I would recommend at least get involved with a Bible study so you can get to know some people. Then build friendships, not just the one hour on sunday deal.
“As iron sharpens iron, so one man sharpens another.” Proverbs 27:17
I said I prayer for you and will continue to pray. You are def making the right steps, and by releasing this burdon on me shows that you really do want God to show up. Be expecting my friend as God is always ready for us to draw near to him.
“Draw close to God, and God will draw close to you” James 4:8
i want to die becoz i lost my every thing to i have . i lost my love i lost my job now my health is not so good i dying and i don’t know how to deal all this think .
Praying for you Sonal. I know things can look down, but there is still hope and a future for you. God’s will for your life is good.
consider yourself lucky, most people will live out in the woods and keep up a drug filled lifestyle, it doesn’t bother them…
When I feel suicidal and I search for stuff about it on the internet, and I get christian garbage attempting to convert me, I become more angry and resentful. I guarantee that no matter how many people lame attempts like this have convinced, it has driven more people TO rather than AWAY from suicide. It only makes us feel MORE alienated and isolated that the only people who care about convincing us not to kill ourselves are doing it for a religious/ideological mandate given to them by an invisible friend.
I know it may seem that you are more isolated, but I am not trying to do that at all. I merely only wanted to say that I can relate to how you feel. I also believe that if I knew the truth but didn’t tell you then wouldn’t that make me a lier? I’ve seen so many miracles in my life and I know one of the main causes for wanting to kill ourselves is not having love or a purpose. I don’t want you to see me as all religious as I’m not trying to be. But what If the God I speak of does miracles and is very willing to do them in your life? He was willing to send His son for you then don’t you think he’d do a lot more than just that?
Perfectly spoken words Arjuna. If you want to find true happiness stay away from religion. Justin is a fanatic, he claims to have seen people miraculously healed. Well I have a challenge for you Justin: heal an amputee. It has never been done. It can’t be.
Rob,
I know of a greater healing than an amputee. The dead being brought back to life! I’ve not yet seen that, but God willing I may get the chance. I’ve heard of a handful of people having seen this. Not the cause of religion, but a living God. He is able to heal anything; including that depressed heart of yours. I only hope good things for you Rob. I pray God reveals Himself to you in a personal way. God bless!
justin,
i have been down the same path… broken families, drugs, crimes and worst of all i became succesfull from all that. i now live partying and making more money than the average ceo of any fortune five company and not once have i ever had a prayer answered. as a matter of fact as long as i believed in myself no dream was out of site. even when i was most screwed up on substances is when i was allowed a different perspective on my own self and how to evaluate my encouragement. believe in yourself and you will see the truth…… i know i have.
We relate in many ways then. Though, there is one question that I have for you. You say all your dreams are meet by just believing in yourself, but there is still a void inside that you can’t fill with drugs, money, or sex? Then you found my site by searching how to die. I also can relate with this, and the pride of not being able to confess my problems. I’m going to pray that God opens up your eyes to see the truth.
what do you do when even god even turns his back to you. what do you do when u see you mom and dad get killed in fron of your face and the person that killed them tells you (this is what god wants me to do.) you dont know what to think or do
I’m sorry to hear for your lose. I haven’t experienced anything like that, but I do want you to know that it wasn’t God’s will that they died like that. The man who killed them was defiantly serving a different god, not Jesus. I’m going to pray for you, and have others pray as well.
thanks for sharing your story…but even God can’t save everyone. Some of us are truly lost
“Here is a trustworthy saying that deserves full acceptance: Christ Jesus came into the world to save sinners – of whom I am the worst. But for that very reason I was shown mercy so that in me, the worst of sinners, Christ Jesus might display his unlimited patience as an example for those who would believe on him and receive eternal life.” – 1 Timothy 1:15-16
Paul formally known as Saw, killed thousands of Christians then was inspired by God to write this. If God can forgive him, then surely He can forgive anyone.
“For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.” Romans 8:38
This is another verse that proves God loves everyone, and wants everyone to repent so you can have a relationship with the heavenly Father.
At this very moment I felt very let down but after going thru this msg I feel that for everything that happens to us is meant to teach us something new and make us stronger too. Praise be to God in the highest for He always proves that He is the eternal God who never lets us down when we come and surrender ourselves to Him.
I’m so blessed that you decided to write me, and let me know that my story has encouraged you. We aren’t ment to go through this world alone, but instead need others to help us stay strong. In the same way you were encouraged, I also was encouraged.
“And if one prevail against him, two shall withstand him; and a threefold cord is not quickly broken.”-Ecc 4:12
“As iron sharpens iron, so one man sharpens another.”-Pro 27:17
God bless!
Dear Open Road Biker Church; We have a lot of bikers at our Calvary Chapel crchuh in Spokane Washington and they are a blessing to the whole congregation. We love our biker brothers. I am also a volunteer for the organization that is co-sponsoring the upcoming Memorial Convention for the first anniversary of that terrible Fort Hood shooting. Our director, Mr. Keith Davies would like to get some information, along with posters (we pray you will put up), concerning this event. Please email me back and provide me with an e-mail address I can use to send you this information. We want to let everyone know about, and have an opportunity to attend, this event who wants to.Thank you and God Bless YouPatti KahlVolunteer for the FFMU
I want to finish my tohught here. If God treated us fairly Jesus would have never died on the cross. and we would have never been offered salvation. I praise God that He loves me, He never fails me and He goes to plan B and on. Look ho w He blessed Israel, they sinned and went away from God countless times, but He was faithful and loved them any way. Romans 5:8 But God commended His love toward us, in that while we were sinners Christ died for us. Praise be to God!
Hey thank you for being a great encouragement. God bless you Alivespa!
justin, thanks for sharing your story, God is out there (not sure if praying will help) the question is how can one live a life that doesnt want to live, ive help allot of people, however now that I dont have a dollar to my name I feel like the more you help the more you get screw. Im not sure if I want to live anymore, im trying but theres no love anymore in my life, last week i got robbed at gunpoint and now my employeer will not pay me because i was robbed, in other words i was robbed from my boss, things happen in life I just hope I can live another day to see it.
Your welcome Jim. By all means praying to the Father in Jesus name is hear! I am living proof of this, and I will be praying for you Jim. I was exactly like you bro. I used to fully believe God was real, but didn’t believe that He was a personal God. Now I know that the God I read about working through Jesus’ life is the same today, yesterday and forever. He never changes. I also feel like this verse is for you…
“The LORD is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.” Psalm 34:18
P.S. I will be praying for you Jim.
My name is Scott. I have struggled my intere life with my relationship with God. I believe that Jesus died for our sins. I believe that God watches over his children. Over the years I have attended many, many different churches. Do you ever have that feeling that you just don’t fit in somewhere? It was like that for me. I believe there is a plan for us, if you’ll only give yourself over to Him. From the moment I walked up to the door of the Georgetown Library and met Darla, I felt as if I was home at last. Since meeting Darla, I have met John, Phyllis, and a host of others. All made me feel welcome and all made me feel at home. To be in the presence of God among so many great people, well it was just heavenly. Butch spreads the word as if he just can’t hold it in any more, with passion and a zest for living the life of a man of God. Thank you for making me feel welcome and thank you all who attend our biker church for welcoming a stray lamb back into the fold.
I am so depress..the more I don’t deal with this. The harder it gets and I am afraid I would do something bad to myself. I do believe in God and also I am coward, those of my reason I haven’t done anything I can’t take back. But I don’t how long I can last ..I am a sinner and I feel I don’t deserve to live anymore
Hey Marian,
I’m praying for you and believe that He will bring a renewed spirit to your heart. Everything will get better, take hold of the promises God has given you. Nobody is too far gone to be saved, and you are special to God and have a purpose. The dreams you had as a child were put there by God and he wants to use you. God used Paul who killed many of His people, and God used me; a worthless criminal.
Obviously, something or someone in the universe, god or otherwise, wanted to turn your life around. And I’m glad that it/he/she did. Though I’m going to be completely honest with you; I don’t think that I’m ever going to amount to anything. Nothing and no one will ever be able to change that. Why, you might ask? Because I’m dispassionate, trapped, and have no soul. That’s why. Hell or reincarnation as worthless insect is the future set in stone for me–the only one that I’m sure of.
So, your miracle, it doesn’t happen to people who don’t have a reason to live. People who don’t WANT to live, no matter what turns around for us, because we’re always going to be selfish, depressed people. And we’re always going to want the shortcut out of here. We’ll always look for the best way to leave our miserable lives using our pathetic motives.
Please enlighten me on your solution to this, besides the one that I’m obviously suggesting at, if there is one. And I say that in the least sarcastic way possible, whether you believe me or not, because I really do want to know if there’s another option to this. You seemed to have one for everyone else, anyway.
Sophie,
I continue to give the same answer to everybody Sophie. The answer is the truth that there is a loving God who cares so much for us that he would send his son to earth to die a painful death. He sent his son while we were still sinners, and you’ve heard my testimony of how God took worthless scum and saved me. This is not the only miracle I’ve seen, but nearly every one of my posts are about personal encounters with God.
God used people to heal the blind, cast out demons heal people of diseases. I’ve also seen many of the same things. God is a personal God, the same yesterday, today and forever. He has never changed, and is still in the business or restoring lives. We complicate everything. The truth is simple. “Confess that Jesus Christ is Lord and believe in your heart that God raised Him from the dead and you are saved.” Romans 10:9-10
I do tend lean towards our problems being spiritual, because I know we have souls. I also know that you want to live as you wouldn’t have wrote to me if you otherwise thought that. He is a personal God and has already chosen you, and knew you before you were born. He already knew you’d mess up but he still cares. I am praying that God will reveal his love to you in a real way that will change your life.
i do have the same simalarities but no drugs no sex no crimes and no broken families. yes in early days i had some drugs but that was long time ago . i dont know wat is chasing me.i cannot think. i dont know wat to do in this age. i am about 30. i dont have work no money just relying still on parents.this sucks!! please tell me wat to do
“Have you not known? Have you not heard? The LORD is the everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth. He does not faint or grow weary; his understanding is unsearchable. He gives power to the faint, and to him who has no might he increases strength. Even youths shall faint and be weary,and young men shall fall exhausted; but they who wait for the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint.” Isaiah 40:28-31
“Most assuredly, I say to you, whatever you ask the Father in My name He will give you. 24 Until now you have asked nothing in My name. Ask, and you will receive, that your joy may be full. 25 “These things I have spoken to you in figurative language; but the time is coming when I will no longer speak to you in figurative language, but I will tell you plainly about the Father. 26 In that day you will ask in My name, and I do not say to you that I shall pray the Father for you; 27 for the Father Himself loves you, because you have loved Me, and have believed that I came forth from God. 28 I came forth from the Father and have come into the world. Again, I leave the world and go to the Father.” 29 His disciples said to Him, “See, now You are speaking plainly, and using no figure of speech! 30 Now we are sure that You know all things, and have no need that anyone should question You. By this we believe that You came forth from God.” 31 Jesus answered them, “Do you now believe? 32 Indeed the hour is coming, yes, has now come, that you will be scattered, each to his own, and will leave Me alone. And yet I am not alone, because the Father is with Me. 33 These things I have spoken to you, that in Me you may have peace. In the world you will have tribulation; but be of good cheer, I have overcome the world.” John 16:23-33
Hello! My name is Robert,I am 36 yrs old and I have a daughter that is 13 and a fiance that is 37..Her and I have been together for 13 yrs. We never got married because we have always been in hard times and her family makes it clear that we should not do it. She has come down with a serious life time illness and she may be prego. I have had a surgery and workers comp is not paying nothing as of now. I am fighting them in court. I was a very big drinker at one time ..I was very very dangerous to be around when I was on the bottle. I got a DUI last yr and I turned my drink over to have a Vicodine habbit. I can not get off this drug I’m in so much pain when I am not on it…It is Christmas and I am home alone with thoughts of just killing my self. The only thing right now that is holding me back is I know my girl and kid need me here.and the fact that I’m scared to die of not knowing what is after this life…I do love god and I have not been living for him and my life is so freaking dark right now…I got nothing for Christmas I could not buy anything for my family because all my money goes to the drug I need to function in life.I have never had a life feeling so powerless before untill I started taking this drug wow!!! I need a friend to talk to and I have no one….I hope I can make it through this day that Christ was born on and get through this darkness in my life..thanks for letting me share…Merry freaking Christmas…………..
Hey Robert, I understand your frustration. I’ve been locked down by simliar vices myself as you’ve read. I also know that rainbow comes after the storm, but on the same coin when it’s a heavy rain it can be hard to see our path. If you believe in God and know that He speaks and guides His people, then maybe you should give it a try? That’s saying if you believe God has a better plan for you then you have for yourself. Ask yourself who’s will is better… yours or God’s?
Right now I’m leaving in the Philippines, so when you talk about being poor I can also relate as I see people who own nothing and live on a bowl of rice a day or less. Though, this isn’t about money, nor is your main issue about happiness, as that’s only an emotion. We do however have a choice to be joyful, and filled with a purpose. God most certainly has one for you, but don’t let the enemy win bro. FIght back through prayer. I will most def be praying for you Robert. God bless, and Happy New Year!
i want to die so bad my mom is so cruel and kicked mt out of the house a lot,but she tells my dad filthy lies WHAT DO I DO????!!!!!
Hey Meline, I could attempt to give you advice on your situation as well as anybody else, but I’m sure you can tell by now I firmly believe in the power of prayer. Not only does God hear us but He moves in radical ways. “As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts.” Isaiah 55:9 I do not know what God wants to do in your life, but I do know you were created for a purpose. Your life was not an accident, He loves you very much and sent His son to die in your place. If God would send His son, don’t you think He’d send you help as well? God bless and have a Happy New Year!
Im 13 and I’ve thought of suicide in fact thats why I’m on here. I feel like nothing’s here for me I know this was a long time ago but maybe this is a way to let all these suicidal thoughts finally go away. Maybe sharing how I feel will help. I just need advice for wen I get like this. I loved your story and hopefully I can change this way of thinking soon.
Hey Rayray, I’m glad your aware of the fact that telling others makes it easier for you to overcome these thoughts. I have another post that talks about how to change your way of thinking. http://45.79.203.169/words-we-say Nearly every miracle in my life originated through prayer, and on that note I will pray for you. God bless and Happy New Year!
this is amazing and eye opening THANK YOU SO MUCH!
I lost my mother on my birthday January 29th 2005 and I raised my grand daughter for over 7 years then in the summer of 2011 during bible school my daughter decides she is gonna play mommy and takes her! I am left taking care of my 82 year old dad and then in October he dies and now I am all alone!!! I have animals like chickens and cats and dogs but it is not the same!! I can’t call the help line because I am fighting for custody of my grand daughter and I was told if I cant get myself together I would be hospitalized!! I can’t afford that at this point but at times I don’t know why I am going on in my life!!! I have no family now and only a bunch of animals!!! I miss my family and I wish I was dead!!!
I’m so sorry these things have happened to you. I can’t even begin to say that I understand what its like to have a child taken from you. I do know that it’s not the end for you. You will overcome this. I’m praying for you, and other people are praying. I’d also highly recommend that you get a book called Battlefield of the Mind,
it will teach you how to overcome this negative thinking. God bless!
Im Athiest but I’m glad you found your god and your courage to live:)
Thanks Janie,
I hope you don’t mind, but I will be praying that you find the truth. I don’t want to shove religion down your throat, but want to give you hope. Don’t lose hope as life is beautiful!
Justin, will you pray for me? Will someone hear you? I have three small children and I don’t want it to be the end for me. I need your strength-I need your faith
Hey Suz,
I will most def pray for you. God does hear all of us and He answers the prayers of those who cry out to Him and seek His will. “The LORD is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit” – Psalm 34:18 God bless!
he i want to die coz i have lose every think in this moment in six year time 1st i have lost my mom n dad hope n day kick me out of house now i don’t have any choice now i have lost my job n nothing is there left in my life i don’t have money.to go back in my country. i am so depress
Hey Jeet,
I don’t pretend to know how to fix all problems but I know in my life that God is calling for us to give our problems to Him with faith. When we do this he will take over. I also know that worry is lack of faith, just trust the God who created the universe. “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.” Matt 11:28:29
Taking a shot in the dark here…
I’ve been depressed more than half of my (relatively short) life and have had frequently recurring thoughts of suicide (and one attempt) for the past four years or so. While I consider myself a Christian, the depression and suicide ideation is sort of “clouding” my faith. Or maybe those aren’t the causes at all. I was never happy, even when I was strong believer. I was raised in a Christian home, grew up believing and still desperately want to believe, but somehow I can’t regain the faith I once had. Christianity, unfortunately, eliminates a self-preserving fear of death. I’ve accepted Jesus as my Savior, but now I’m having an hard time believing in anything. How can you find and nourish a faith that has seemingly fled? Every time I read the Bible, I feel an awful twinge of hypocrisy as I try, but can’t, believe. Prayers feel like empty words, like simply talking to myself. Help.
I’m praying for you. I don’t have all the answers but faith comes by hearing the Word of God. Continue to read and pray. Be honest to God when you pray.
hello mr.justin i want to see jesus but how?……… so i wanna decided to die then what wil jesus do ha plz i want talk with my lord………. i wanna die within 1 month……………………….pls reply me sir…
To hear God is actually easier than people realize; read the Holy Bible. Wanting to die to get away from pain is understandable as I’ve seen it many times. When I shattered my leg in 25 places I thought the same thing again. Though, to kill yourself is not God’s will. If you confess with your mouth Lord Jesus and believe in your heart that God raised Him from the dead, you will be saved. I’m praying for you. God bless!
4 months ago my wife left me, i could barely eat, sleep, be alone. Had ALOT of suicidal thoughts. Couldnt even sleep in my room anymore. My wife isolated me for months. now in the process of divorce and my feelings are all over the place. angry depressed sad random thoughts of suicide. i dont know how to deal anymore. i belive in god and i press onto him as much as i can. But sometimes it feels like my prayers arent answered.
Hey Luis,
I’ll be praying for you. I know life throws us curve balls, but keep pressing in towards God. When you pray in God’s will it will be answered! Keep reading the Word as well as its God breathed and is the best way to hear God’s voice. God bless!
Hi Justin,
Can you make me talk to God once………
I am all alone in this world…..there was a time when I had all the happiness in this world…but gradually all that faded away….I WANT TO DIE..BUT CANNOT…. I will have to live few more years so as to let my ‘now left’ closed ones live peacefully……….but shadows of the past surround me…….how to get out of it..why I cannot forget what filled my heart with lifelong pain…when will this all end Justin….tell me..
I know your burden and there is hope. Jesus said “come to me all you who are burdened and weary and I will give you rest” Matt 11:18 God wants to draw close to you as its also written in James 4:4 “Draw close to God and God will draw close to you”. The pain and worry will go away when you learn to let go of it and give it to God. I know it sounds religious but its not. There is nothing complicated about it but praying truthfully to God. Praying for you Shruti
Why do people always want to blame God for the bad things that happen to them? What about when something good happens they do give him credit? Or have people forgotten our true enemies satan and his demons, “The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I came that they may have life, and have it abundantly.” John 10:10
So whether he steals your peace of mind or your material things, whether he kills the joy in your life or a loved one with cancer or he destroys your family or your sanity it is an orchestrated attack with a purpose. Your end.
How can you fight your true enemy when you don’t even know who your true enemy is? “For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places.” Ephesians 6:12 The enemy is not your mother, it’s not your boss, it’s not that guy who cut you off on the freeway. But wow can we hold onto grudges, anger and past hurts, to the point of creating our own hell on earth and self destruction. We destroy ourselves with the words from our very own mouths, “Life and death is in the power of the tongue” Proverbs 18:21
It is much easier to blame someone else for our plight than to take responsibility for our own actions. Most people are like children who say and do whatever makes them feel good even if it may hurt someone else. They do not realize the damage that is done. Or how satan is using them to destroy another person. People who know God know Love. If God has truly changed your heart you are not the same. You forgive because you have been forgiven. You grow up. “When I was a child, I spoke like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I gave up childish ways.” I Corinthians 13:11 No one is perfect of course but that’s okay because Christ says “ my power is made perfect in weakness.” II Corinthians 12:9
Even in horrific cases of abuse and neglect a person has to let go of the past to truly move forward. It’s not easy but it’s possible with God. He is the creator who “knew you before you were formed in the womb” Jeremiah 1:5 He knows your full potential and your purpose you don’t listen to the negative things people say when you know what God says: “I have said, Ye are gods; and all of you are children of the most High.” Psalms 82:6
If you want to get angry get angry with satan and do NOT allow him to destroy you call on the name of Jesus! Don’t waste your time worrying about what people do because,
“ All people have sinned and fallen short of the glory of God.” Romans 3:23. We can only teach what we know and maybe those people who sin against you don’t know but now you do.
Nice Catherine, you sort of sound like your preaching on my blog. I agree with what you say and hope all is well. Show the love by praying for those that I am reaching out to. Being suicidal is no joke. God bless!
what are you a Jehovah witness
Hey Sosad,
I’m not a Jehovah Witness. I’m a follower of Christ who offered His life for mine, then rose again from the dead and sent His Holy Spirit to guide us.
Praying for you!
God bless you all,we have not forgot the wnuedrfol time at both the rally and the service we attended.Just like Scott we felt really accepted and at home.We are coming back as soon as the roads thaw out. Jerry & Linda Hineline
Alright ailrght alright that’s exactly what I needed!
Hey Gilberto, I’m glad you found what you were looking for here. God bless you!
I used to pray a lot. Now I can’t. I feel I have lost the connection with God.
I think about suicide a lot and I am very unhappy. My life seems to be worthless and empty. I consider myself as a bad person and waste of space. And the world around is so cruel that I don’t want to be here.
I am in a dark place and there is no hope any more,only everyday struggle….
x
Hey, there is hope for you. Its not complicated in how to draw close to God through prayer. He is a very personal God willing to save you/heal you by any means if you allow Him. I also want to tell you that the best way to hear His voice is by reading the Bible. You were created for a purpose, don’t give up bro just give it to God. Praying for ya as I’m on your side.
Our lord is shining through you Justin.. spreading the word of god through your story is one of the most amazing truths to share. I needed comfort and prayed for help and god brought me to your story. It helped a lot more than you would ever know. My body aches because I allowed my sadness take over my entire soul and body. I felt alone with despair and I still kind of feel depressed but you reminded me that I’m not alone and that god uses every situation for his greater purpose, for example, you going through what you did to bring you closer to the lord and ultimately helping others like me because of it. God bless Justin and thank you so much for sharing your faith!
Praying for you Jillian. I’m blessed that you were able to get something out of my story. I know everything will work out for you as God is a personal God and has many plans for you. You were brought into this world for a purpose that only Jillian can do. Get around others who will help lift you up and encourage you. God bless!
I read your story because of the title., it wasnt what i was expecting to read but i guess you cant hide from God, i was feeling sad and having suicidal thoughts., i pray all the time and go to church but i guess i let myself slip and So thank u for writing this it helped me to move on again. God is an awesome God.. God bless you!!
God bless you as well! I’ll be praying for you.
Hey Justin! I’m really glad you’re good and found your god.(: Your story is truly amazing. I was wondering if you could help me a bit? I’ve been depressed for about 5 years now and I hadn’t thought about suicide til a year and a half ago. I didn’t do drugs
And my family isn’t broken at all, I’m Athiest though and I’m 16 now. I was thinking about suiciding :/ I’ve also been in and out of school for about 3 years . Idk how to go to school without feeling so depressed all the time. All I do now is stay in my room not wanting to talk to anyone at all. I’ve tried overdosing twice but it had done nothing serious to me. Idk what Im supposed to do..I know I need to stay in school but I just don’t have the will to. Everytime someone talks about school to me I just end up breaking down..I feel like a failure all the time. I also had therapy but I stopped going . Please help >_<
I’ll be praying for you to figure things out. I no we make it more complicated than it really is. Also, it will help to talk to somebody about it, even if its a stranger. I don’t have all the answers but I’m sure there is a God out there that has show Himself as a personal God.
Thank you . I will be thinking about what you’ve said. I do agree with making things complicated because I hate to have to be lonely but I dont let anyone talk to me at all. I’m so glad to have stumbled upon your page or else idk what I would’ve done to myself again. I know it seems little to you with my problem but it’s ruining me everyday. Thanks so much for listening!
Hey Chami, I’m glad your eyes have been opened and begun to understand some things. I pray for those who read my site often, and have others doing the same. You aren’t alone and my heart goes out to those who have the same problem as I once did. It concerns me a lot as I have found God and I have also found a solution to my problems.
Somebody once said, “If you saw somebody about to drink a cup of poison and didn’t say anything to them. Then would that make you guilty of them dieing, because you knew it was about to happen?” I think so, and in the same way I see people dying and going to hell without having heard the truth of a personal God who DOES MIRACLES. My first 4-5 posts on this site have miracles all in them. I have many more that I havn’t told yet but would like to when I’m not quiet so busy.
God bless you!
Thanks! You’re a precious person Justin! I want you to know that because I can’t imagine how many people you have saved/helped with your life stories/words and I’m definitely one of them. You please keep doing what you’re doing sir. I really appreciate it, so much. <3
Chami,
You were the very reason I created this site and took the time to rank it up in Google. I am very blessed by your response to the Word of God and the testimony that God has given me to share. I will keep you in my prayers like the others. Thanks for taking the time to comment, and letting me know that I’ve been able to help you in one way or another. God is powerful, believe in Him and watch Him do miracles in your life! God bless!
Our family was so eticxed to see that your dad got to finally come home and the fact that it was Christmas makes you really think about the Reason for the Season . We are so happy for y’all and wish your dad a speedy recovery while at home. From our family to yours Merry Christmas and Happy New Year.
i dont like to live in this world.. my father never respects me and calls be bad words.. im an indian boy of 15 year old
Hey Sandy,
I know this world is tough. Even our very own family can be against us. I’ve felt that same rejection from my own at one point in my life. I want you to know that there are people who care for you, and don’t want to see you hurt or depressed. Jesus said “The thief comes not, but to steal, and to kill, and to destroy: I am come that they might have life, and that they might have it more abundantly.” John 10:10 If you accept Jesus and ask Him to come into your life, then He will show you how to have life to the full! This I can assure you! I’m living proof of this radical change. Jesus answered, “I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me. John 14:6
God bless, praying for you Sandy!
Hey Justin, i’m not good in English because i’m Indonesian.
It’s good to read your story because in this week I’m trying to find out how to die like the others who got depressed. Finally I found the same guy that the other always call it a “BAD GUY”. Who knows that some people want to die?? I got married in 17 and start a new life because I think when I’m married the girl I loved so much it will change my life, but i don’t think so. Now I’m stuck in 2 families, my family and her family. They doesn’t like me because they think I can’t do everything to make my wife and daughter happy. But I always do my best. I told them that it’s the best I can do, but they won’t listen to me. That’s how I response this. First, I just want to reply it with “That’s a good story” but I think it touch my heart. Yes, That’s a very very amazing story in your life.
God Bless You Justin
Hey Alexander,
I’m glad my story has encouraged you, and I hope you find the other stories encouraging as well. As you can see God continues to move powerfully for those who put faith upon Him and seek His face. I said a quick prayer for you, but its apparent that you need to ask Jesus yourself to guide you. Don’t be so concerned about what others think, to be honest their opinions are private and you shouldn’t allow them to effect you. Just pray for them, ask God to bless them.
“If you love me, then obey my commandents. Then I will pray to the Father and he will send another, that He may abide with you forever, the Spirit of Truth, whom the world does not know, because they neither see Him nor know Him, but you know Him, for he dwells with you and lives in you. I will not leave you orphans, I will come to you.” John 14:15
Hey does god really exist? If yes, why couldn’t I feel him? Why is he not helpin me? why is he not making my life normal? M missing the zest to live. I feel very alone from inside. I don’t have frenz.
Kuku,
Yes, God/Jesus really exists. I have heard and seen God do many things in my life. But he wants us to put faith in Him, by believing without seeing Him with our 5 senses. I know its sounds radical, but there is a God who cares for you so much that He came down to earth to shed His blood on a cross for you. The blood was the sacrifice needed so that your sins could be forgiven. I have many stories on my site about what God has done, but I prayed that you would experience God in the same way. “For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” Jer 29:11 I’m praying that you will seek after the truth, because if you try you will find it. This I’m sure of. God bless!
Hi Justin,
I just wanted to say I felt your story, but some have it different and I am in the position where I have it all a family and place to live and much
More. The only thing is I’m 16 and I made some stupid choices in my earlier teen years and I don’t know if I can or anyone else can forgive me for my sins, I just want to know is there ever hope
Or will I live the rest of my life in guilt for my actions? Also why does god
Make
Us do the things we do, is it to learn a lesson because I for sure would like to go back and make up for my mistakes 🙁
Sincerely,
Kid in need of help…
Hey Brennick,
It appears you already have remoarse for what you’ve done, which is of course a good thing. Being able to see right from wrong, and admit when you’ve done wrong is a mature thing. We’ve all made mistakes and God forgives us as long as we repent(change our way of thinking) and turn to Jesus. Don’t take my word for it though, read Gospel of John and see what Jesus says about our sins. By reading Scriptures it is the easiest way to hear His voice.
“If my people, who are called by my name, will humble themselves and pray and seek my face and turn from their wicked ways, then will I hear from heaven and will forgive their sin and will heal their land.” 2nd Chron 7:14
Im glad to have stumbled upon your page, read your story an others comments. it appears that we all have different reasons for the terrible way we feel. last year was the worst ever in my entire life. next month will mark a year since every aspect of my life started unraveling. i dont feel any different today except worse. i never would have imagined that at the age of almost 35 i feel like just ‘checking out’. At a point in life now, when things are suppose to be coming together, mine has fallen apart. im going through a COMPLETE LIFE ALTERING CHANGE…with VERY BIG ISSUES! that i just cant cope with. IVE LOST MY MIND OVER IT ALL!…had nervous breakdowns an everything. i realize its my fault. i have no-one to blame. (we are, our own worst enemy…no? pfft)
On another note: I was a patron when the “station nightclub fire” disaster happened, an let me tell you.. IT WAS A FACT, THAT GOD.. OR I GUESS MY GUARDIAN ANGEL THAT SAVED ME. but ya know..if i knew my life was going to turn out the way its been, since then.. id like to go back in time an trade a place with someone that didnt make it.)
i hope to hear from ya…we can talk by email if you’d like…btw im going to get that book because i realize “if we dont change the way we think, we’ll never get better”…the problem is HOW??
Hey Chuck,
I read your stories and obviously you are still alive for a reason. I’m glad you were able to make it to this site and contact me, as I’m willing to help where I can and enjoy seeing people try to make a difference in their own lives.
That is great to hear you realized its time to stop thinking the way you’ve always thought. I’ll be praying that the book really opens up your eyes on your question of “HOW”. I sent you an email, and I hope you enjoyed the other amazing stories on the site.
So i read your story. I’m 14 years old, and i live in a broken home and have a horrible life. Both of my parents live in different houses, and they both abuse me. I was really considering suicide. But my whole family are “Christians”. After reading your story, it really opened my eyes that God really is there. It made me start crying. Thank you so much for changing my perspective of God by sharing this.
Hey Bree,
Its not God’s will that you should suffer, but on the same token we do all go through trials. Don’t give up, just give it to God! I know He will give you comfort like He gave me comfort after my motorcycle accident. “Don’t let anyone look down on you because you are young, but set an example for the believers in speech, in life, in love, in faith and in purity.” 1st Tim 4:12
You know I’m very blessed by your life. I know its hard but you will make it! Your precious in the eyes of God! I’m going to be praying for you, and be expecting God to send His comforter.
“If you love me, you will obey what I command. And I will ask the Father, and he will give you another Helper, to be with you forever, even the Spirit of truth, whom the world cannot receive, because it neither sees him nor knows him. You know him, for he dwells with you and will be in you. I will not leave you as orphans; I will come to you.” John 14:15
Hi Justin…read yours and i am touched. I’m actually thinking on taking away my life. I had 2 wonderful daughters but there is always some issues that makes me and my husband end with a fights which makes me very sad…please help me….i need someone to guide me to the right path….
Hey Thila,
Thomas said to him, “Lord, we don’t know where you are going, so how can we know the way?” Jesus answered, “I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me – John 14:5-6
The right path is simple. I can show you the way, but it is only you who can walk down it. God can fix your marriage as He was the one who created it. “Therefore what God has joined together, let man not separate.” Mark 10:9
I’ll be praying for you!
Hey Justin,
The mental battle on one day to another that i deal with is quite a contrast depending how im feeling at that moment: one day i entertain suicide thoughs because my emotions are triggered by something/stuff and it puts me back at square one. (last year i was walking on a high bridge, an almost at the top…when police showed up an stopped me. a passing motorist saw me an called them)
on another day i say to myself: we are all mortal, eventually we will die anyway..WHY SPEED IT UP? its not rational!
These back & forth thoughts are my constant struggle.
Id like to say something about “dot’s” comment (her name caught my eye, because it was my mother’s name. she unexpectedly died on march 7, 2010 from a simple out-patient procedure. she was only 59!) “dot’s” comment seems bad. no doubt. but whatever her situation is, theres always someone else out there with much worse problems.
when i here of kids in there early teens that kill themselves over being bullied at school or issues they may have with their parents…etc i can understand that, put the problem there is: there minds/personalities in most cases are not fully developed. IMO, they dont see the “bigger picture” to life. they only “see” 3 feet in front of them.
my young daugther has issues with kids on the school bus & other things that are minor–obviously to me…BUT not to her. i totally understand that, because i was that age once. i try to comfort her or change her thought process, with different tactics. one day i said “if you think u got problems…do u want my life? wait till ur an adult an the challenges u’ll have, because in life we all get our fair share, but i hope you never go through what im dealing with”. (i said that because im “outside the box” of teen years)
justin,
Another thing i wanted to mention, as ive learned of your near death experiences.
I have had i think like, 7 or 8 incidents were i could of died or been seriously injured.
i like to share a few, off the top of my head that i remember.
1. I owned a 1995 mustang that i bought when it was practically still brand new. i was always speeding. (NO JOKE, i averaged at least 1 ticket every 2 months.) one time i got pulled over on the highway, the cop was very upset with me “saying, i clocked you at 97 mph!..an i dont know HOW FAST you were going when you saw me, an tried slowing down”!! needless to say, he threw the ticket at me an said “when you go to court, bring your bank book”! I didnt learn my lesson, because not long after that, i was cut off by another car that drove into my lane traveling much slower, as i was approaching, my speed was somewhere around 90 (again) this time i had to ‘really’ hit the brakes..as i did this, my car fish tailed, turning 180 degrees, sliding sideways at a rate then at still 70 ish. in this moment i was watching my death about to happen. there was a middle divider gaurd railing that seperated to different directions of the highway. as im sliding with this ‘point’ thats clearly going to impact me dead center of my driver door! I THINK IT WAS A ACT OF GOD, BECAUSE ALL OF A SUDDEN I REALIZED BRAKING WASNT WORKING. I SLAMMED MY FOOT ON THE GAS AN STEERED THE WHEEL IN THE SAME DIRECTION. IT WORKED. the car straightened out at the last seconds, I COULDNT BELIEVE I MISSED IT BY A FOOT OR SO!
2. then in summer 2001, me an a buddy ‘drinking it up’..late one night decide to go for a joy ride, were i had mentioned this hill on a road i knew of. it has kinda a crest to it…that all you needed is to drive down it at mere 30mph or so, passing the stop sign…AND THE CAR FLIES OFF THE ROAD! he was driving, an was amazed…so he decided to go for another “RUN”. this time i said “step on it”. we flew real high this time..in mid air we hit our heads on the inside roof, the car comes down, SMACKS the ground. an he was unable to stop the car an turn.. because the road ends (u have to go either left or right) we went straight, crashed threw a fence, flipped over, an down 6 feet into someones yard. the car rested upside down between the house & a huge tree–litterally about only 5 feet between either side! the roof flatened down with just enough room for us to slide out! WE WERE UN- HARMED, HE WAS BLEEDING FROM A CUT TO THE ARM, I WAS SORE BUT THAT WAS IT. we jumped unto the bottom of the car to gain hight in order to climb back up on the road..AND GET OUT OF THERE FAST!! BEFORE THE COPS SHOWED UP. next day we went to the junkyard were the car was an the tow man said..he couldnt believe we were not hurt or dead.
dude thatts some AWESOME STORIES. i like to skydive and once the parachute didnt open, i kept yanking on it untill it came off. not open but off, i was sure i was going to go down into the concrete below. it was awseome. but then i realized i could pull the emergency one so i did. DANG YOU EMERGENCY CHUTE!!!!!!!
Hey,
I’m sorry that life is hard for you. You know after the storm there is a calm peace and refreshing, as its cooled the earth. Likewise, we go through storms in our lives but when we get through them we find ourselves in a peaceful bliss. I’m going to be praying for you. God bless!
Hey that is a very good story!, I am alrite in life but when I grow up I don’t think I will follow in the path that I want to achieve in…
I’m currently 13 years old.
My dream in life is becoming a game maker and apparently electricity is going out in about a year or so and I don’t know if gaming will be this popular in the future because I have no idea what will happen :l
I’m still young and can start to code to make games but the problem is I don’t think I have it in me… I usualy play games and can’t be boverd to make them I need something to really inspire me to make the game.. and a easy coding device or something like that… Basicly a mircale to get me started and life for me is okay but its not that great I do have a girlfriend who I love a lot but we have been having arguments and such 🙁
I think you have struck a real miracle by God himself.
😉
Hey Conor,
I know we sometimes don’t know what life has in store for us… but pursuing your dreams is exactly what you should do! God wired us all in different ways. The Mayans have been wrong so many times so why do you think electricity will all the sudden be gone? Forget those silly legends and learn about what the Bible says will happen at the end times, its def interesting. Also, game designers would have to be into programming, unless you did digital arts.
You really have so much time ahead of you bro, don’t stress it. Life is beautiful and know that I’m praying for ya.
Hi,
I have read your storey and I’m glad that you have worked through your depression and that you have new hope for the future. I am a christian man who loves the Lord and asked Him into my life when I was four years old. My mom and biological dad got divorced before I was born because he did not want children, then she married my step-dad who raised and adopted me, but he and his family are very religious. I found out when I was about 19 that he was not my real dad and that I had another name before that.It did not totally come as a surprise for I have always suspected something. Long story short, in my family we don’t talk about things. I am gay, but cannot tell them out of fear of disconnection and judgement. I have lost the will to live and feel that there is no way out. I just cannot reconsile my faith and my sexuality. I have now moved countries to be away from my family ,whom I really love, and to make things worse, I have entered into a civil partnership to stay abroad. It is all my fault. I have created an even bigger mess by trying to run away. I am sad all the time and tired of all these lies. Please would you pray for me. I am trapped and do not know what to do.
Thank you
Hey Marcus,
I’ll be praying for you, that you will seek the truth. I know life is hard and family can make it worse, but there is always a right and wrong choice to make. “No temptation has overtaken you except such as is common to man; but God is faithful, who will not allow you to be tempted beyond what you are able, but with the temptation will also make the way of escape, that you may be able to bear it. ” – 1 Cor 10:13
Many people have been in the wrong relationships, whether the opposite sex or not. You are not the first to struggle with this. I’m sorry that it is beating you down with conviction, but to be honest that is good your conscience isn’t seared. That means God is still trying to reach out to you. You don’t have to clean yourself up either, I’m not asking that. Do you wash your feet before you get in the shower? No, likewise we don’t need to clean up before we come to God. You don’t even need to change religions. Only thing I want you to see is that God wants a personal relationship with you. God bless you brother, I’m praying for you.
Marcus,
I know it’s been awhile since you commented but I wasn’t trying to ignore you. I’ve been really busy and want you to know I pray for everybody who comes on this website, especially those who are suffering with depression. I pray that you will find the peace you are looking for.
“Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. 7 And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. 8 Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable — if anything is excellent or praiseworthy — think about such things. 9 Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me — put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you.” Philippians 4:6-9
“Great peace have those who love Your law, And nothing causes them to stumble.” Psalm 119:165
“The LORD gives strength to his people; the LORD blesses his people with peace.” Psalm 29:11
Peace for His people is written all over the Bible. It’s a promise to His people. Do not worry try to fix yourself before coming to God, but He wants you as you are! He loves you just as you are Marcus! There is nothing you can Marcus, that will separate you from the love of God! Do you wash your feet before you get in the shower? Doubt it. Same way, don’t wash up before you goto God. Go as you are and know that God wants to strengthen the relationship that He has with you.
We all sin Marcus, but choosing to forgive and let go makes us conquerors. I’m not perfect by any means, I just choose to sin differently than you. Like you I’m trying daily to be what God wants me to be. Don’t give up Marcus because God loves you as His son. The more you learn who God is, the more you’ll learn your identity in Him. You do have a purpose Marcus, and He has called you out for something only Marcus Fischer can do! Sometimes we go through things, so that when we get right with God, and live on the narrow path, THEN we can help others come out of the same situations that we are selves have come through!
Praying for you brother! God bless!
The entire reading was very encouraging and I must say you are a very brave person. But again it also is the circumstances that surround you and how you choose to be committed to your responsibility both to your family and to the society at large. I have been struggling all through my life to get both ends meet, raised a family in spite of the immense hardship I was put through. Never complained to God and took up each task as a personal challenge until recently my 11 yr son was killed in a freak road accident. This is probably the last I can endure and probably my next step would be to end my useless life. But again as I mentioned I have responsibility of a family and cannot just leave this world and move away. Life is ugly and cruel – I think I should have given up praying for good and nothing worse can happen for a father who has lost his young son.
Hey Kersi,
I’m not sure how you can call me brave, or even how I’ve been committed to my family or society as I did what I wanted. I always hurt my family and was a nuisance to society. Though, maybe now. And I know its not easy to live in this world. But… there is hope… there is joy… there is peace! “May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.” – Romans 15:13
You have a purpose in life. You were created for a purpose. I have a friend who died a couple years ago, and watch his mother struggle with it as well. But don’t forget the loved ones around you as she did. She ended up letting it consume her life, even though that is exactly what her son wouldn’t want her to do. Value every moment you can with your family as life is precious. Of course I’m sorry for your lose, but live every day the best you can as that is what your son would want. I’m going to be praying for you. God bless!
omg i wanted to die and then i read those paragraphs and god gave me hope to live
Hey Armenikayfo
I’m glad you were able to get hope, but I pray that you will continue to seek God.
sometime i think that suiside is a best way to release tension.i can,t say it,s wrong or good. all of you people do not become a narrow mind. plz be see the both point of views
Hey Ahmeduzair,
I understand that living is not easy. I’m not against you on that at all. I know taking our own lives may seem like the easier thing to do, but its not. By no means is it the best point of view. Through our troubles there is still hope. We have to learn to focus on the good things around us, and be thankful. Praying for you!
your going to die,if not today than tomorrow, so why your going to make ur sins more by killing uself? se just chill
Hey, no reason to make your sins more, but it is completely against the will of God to kill yourself. He doesn’t want that at all and it is only lies that people are worthless. Everybody has a purpose in life. I hope and pray everything is going well with you Honey. God bless!
can i ask a qustion, if god love’s us why dose he take the people we are so close to…..
Hey Tone,
I know its hard to explain, but God is a loving God even when He allows bad things to happen in our lives. I’d like you to read the story of how I shattered my leg in a motorcycle accident. It too brought a lot of questions and many of the times I prayed that God would take my life as I was in so much pain. http://45.79.203.169/life-after-death I’m praying for you Tone.
ive had suicidal thoughts. maybe its better if i leave so my parents wont be dissapointed in me anymore. i have been nothing but a a dissapointment to them. i have nothing to look forward to. my brother hit me twice because i was rude to my mother. she is very stress and dissapointed in me time and time again. i doubt god would wanna help me out either because i dont deserve it. i have been distant with god, very selfish. all i could think of is to leave and not be a burden anymore
Hey Sha,
I understand your frustration, but what you say is a lie from the pit of hell. You are listening to the wrong voice. Yes, we all make mistakes, some bigger than others like myself who used to be a drug dealer. Though, it doesn’t matter how big we’ve messed up as we’re all in need of a savior. God most defiantly wants to help you! You are not alone, and people do care for you. Be careful what thoughts you entertain and most especially what voices you listen to. “My sheep hear My voice, and I know them, and they follow Me” – John 10:27
Praying for you Sha, God bless!
Justin,
Im glad god has remembered u n blessed u, im goin thru a real tough time in my marriage and i alsio have a realllly low self esteem… and im just at the tip of the iceberg.. im lost, dont know where to search for help..
Hey Lupita,
I hope my story was encouraging to you. I do know one thing. If God would draw near to a drug dealer crying for help, then He’d draw near to anyone crying for help. I’m going to be praying for you Lupita that your marriage gets stronger. That you’d see what it will take to bring it back to how it should be. “Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened.” Matt 7:7-8 You said you didn’t know where to search for help, well God is calling for you to seek for His help and He has promised to help. God bless!
I’ve been really eceitxd to see PV’s mentality change just in the past year from bringing people INTO the church, to encouraging the church to go OUT. This year for Christmas, rather than doing the same Christmas program its done for over a decade, we’ve themed this Christmas Christmas to GO (picture a chinese to-go box as the image . Everyone in the Northland who has ever wnted to see The Singing Christmas Tree has come to PV to see it EXCEPT those who are homeless or in prison. So where are we taking the message of Christ? To the homeless and to prisons. I’m pretty eceitxd about this I think this is one small way we see the Kingdom of God expanding in a real, and practical way.
Thanks for the encouragement Daniel! God bless you!
Articles like this relaly grease the shafts of knowledge.
Hey Auth,
Thanks for your encouragement, God bless!
hey justin
nice story bt i really dunt think der is god
if der is god den i wont b suffering lyk dis from past 4 years
i have done sins in lyf bt i havent hurt ny1 ,i always help others now n den
bt no can help me bcuz i lost everything dat meant nything to me
its no use of being 2gether again bcuz v r again gonna fight i mean he is again gonna fight wid me on silly topics n den when i dunt agree to stay wid him he says dat he vl die n d problem is i really love him a lot n after he came in ma lyf i changed maself n felt dat nw everything vl b f9 bt no even he started creating problems in ma lyf i m feed up i cant live wid him n even cant live widout him………..
Hey Miles,
I’m sorry your having a relationship problem. I know it can be challenging with emotions pulling in so many directions. Even though you may feel broken hearted and confused, it shouldn’t lead to killing yourself. Life is precious and worth living, girl it really is worth living! The promises of God are true, all of the Word of the Bible is true. He is ready to save, He is ready to heal you. Numbers 23:19 God is not man, that he should lie, or a son of man, that he should change his mind. Has he said, and will he not do it? Or has he spoken, and will he not fulfill it?”
Just a thought, maybe you should try praying to God to give you some answers, cause He will. That’s exactly what He did in my life. John 4:13-14 Jesus said to her, “Everyone who drinks of this water will be thirsty again, but whoever drinks of the water that I will give him will never be thirsty again. The water that I will give him will become in him a spring of water welling up to eternal life.”
can any 1 say me how to end my life in a easy way…
i just hate my life and wanna commit sucide.. so please suggest me the easy way and a painless way pleasee try to understand me… im begging u.. discussed to end my life….
plz, plz, plz,,…………….
i will be waiting for reply…………
Hey,
You are not a looser so stop calling yourself that. You know we all go through tough times, but we just have to fight through them so we can overcome the things of this world. I will be praying that you make Jesus as your Lord and Master, and then you will see the way of escape through a personal God who has saved me. If He would save a worthless scum like me, then he would surely save you.
Praying for you, God bless!
you have been given a life, something that you only get once. i may not be christian, or any other religion, but i know how precious life is. don’t kill yourself man. you never know what you might run into tomorrow, you and i could bump into each other while grabbing a bite and we could become best friends. it may be a small chance, but its a big risk. please don’t kill yourself. but ill tell you what… if you just look at this message and blow it off, at least don’t do anything not worth doing. My name is Ian Layton. and im not going to say that i know what your going through, beacuse honestly i dont. niether do alot of the people you know. they wont understand why their best friend killed him/her self. and thier first reaction will be to blame themselves. dont do that to them… dont do that to yourself. i hope i helped.
Tell me a way to die as easily as possible. I won’t tell you my age or anything about my self. Just tell me how to die so I can get out of this world and slip into heaven.
Hey, I will not give you any advice on how to die. I will pray that you get hope on how to live, as this life is worth living. Even though things can get tough. You should read about my motorcycle story as I believe that will give you hope as well.
God bless, and praying for you!
Just be sure that your mindful and helpful to those that may not have the same beliefs.
I taught this was site would give some advice how die painlessly like in your sleep.. i’m looking for answers like that.
just have a overdose of sleeping pills
Hi,
In my life all are there but there is no use even tho i am fighting for my life
to good but there is no happy ness i feel like killing my self but i am not adl to i cant leve my mother alone i Love my mom Please help me
Hey Sowmya,
God is indeed in love with you and on your side if you allow Him to take Kingship over your life. I also want to share this verse with you..
Romans 5:2-5 Through him we have also obtained access by faith into this grace in which we stand, and we rejoice in hope of the glory of God. More than that, we rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that suffering produces endurance, and endurance produces character, and character produces hope, and hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured into our hearts through the Holy Spirit who has been given to us.
hi ,
pls dnt do that.pls take it easy on life.
i will help you,but what kind of help do you want.
Pls reply this email id.
Regards
yogi
hi saomya,
U love ur mother this is enough dont think abt anything so live happy & share every thing & every thoughts to ur mother. she give u right way.
hi sowmya u hav all relations at ur home but u r feeling lonely once u think abt them they dont have time to spend all time with u if u r not doing anything then plz change ur life style then u will know y then u know their tensions ok n u love ur mom once think abt her
Please don’t do this. Life is beautiful ….it’s like a bike…..Depend on you how to ride…..you will get lots of ups & down’s in your life but it doesn’t mean to end your life …just fight with the situations ….. And win the game of life …then you will feel that you are not a common person .. You have ability to fight and win ….
Hi Sowmya,
even i am facing the same problem, i feel as if no one is with me….God gave me a good job but some insecure problem.Sometim i feel like ending up my life.
Hey Justin.
Just thought i’d let you know you have a wonderful testimony. I believe in GOD and the miracles he can perform, just not for me. I’m different. I’m so far gone, it feels like there’s no hope for me. I’ve attempted suicide 4 times and began cutting at 12.. Theres not much i can do anymore. All i ask is that you pray for me and help me to restore my life to the way i was.. I can’t tell my family (not that they’d care) so i ask for your prayers to help me be myself again. I’m only a teenager, but i don’t have much hope.
Hey Becca,
You will most def have my prayers. I do want to tell you that teenage years can be hard but I promise you the best is yet to come. People do care about you, even if its hard for them to express it. I would like to point something out to you as well. You said you believe in God and miracles, but not for you because your too far gone? What about me being a drug dealer didn’t you understand haha. Your never too far gone from God’s love. He just wants you to “draw near to Him and He will draw near to you” -James 4:8. Also, if you believe God, then you will believe every word of the Bible. All of it is a book of promises of what God will do if your accept Him. Praying for you!
Hello Justin,
I am a mother of 3 children ages 15,17,and 19. I have bipolar disorder and am having alot of trouble since my ex-husband left me 4 years ago on Dec 20, 2008. He left me for another women. We were together 18 years. I have a 1 year old grandson now. I do not want to live any longer because I am lonely. My 15 year old Daughter hates me. my kids that do live with me never want to help out around the house. My daughter was 16 years old when she had my grandson. My ex-husband does not have alot to do with my children that live here with me and has become very mean, hateful,abusive, and other things. Something has just set me off today and I am having a hard time dealing with life right now. I do want to die. I really do. I am on medications. Alot of them. I am trying so hard I just do not know what to do.
Hey Debbie,
I know it doesn’t seem easy, but it will get easier and life will be more enjoyable. I know teenagers are hard to raise up, but thats because they are learning who they are. Just bless them, even when they don’t receive it. Tell them you love them and affirm them where they are doing good. Everyday just encourage them, and you will see them become mature adults because they have the love of their mother. Its hard to correct and rebuke when they aren’t willing to receive, but bless them every chance you get and speak good of them. They are your children and they do love you, even when they don’t show it. I’m praying for you to reconnect with your children, as they are precious even when they make mistakes. Just like our Father in heaven, He is willing to take us back the moment we ask for forgiveness and becoming willing to be embraced.
“So there is hope for your future,” declares the LORD. “Your children will return to their own land.” Jeremiah 31:17
Medications or not, God can heal you. He can do radical miracles of healing or He can use doctors to heal you. I’m also going to be praying for God to heal you like He’s healed me. God bless
Debbie,
I hope all is going well or at least better. From the perspective of a teenager, when I was 16 years old, I was awful. I was an extremely hard child to deal with. I even bursted into fits, quite often, telling my mother how it’d be best if she would just kill herself. I am 21 now. And one thing I want to emphasize most is this: had my mother actually done what I said, I do not know where I would be without her. Yes, I told her I hated her more than anyone and I made her feel awful. I would like to do nothing more than to take back all the horrible things I told my mother. Although I made her cry many nights, she thankfully never did kill herself. Without her, my world would be lost and I would forever regret the words that came out of my mouth (I still do regret them). Teenagers say things they do not mean, they’re very hurtful people. But I know that without you, your daughter would be lost and have a broken heart with the loss of her loving and selfless mother.
You need to re-evaluate yourself. What do you deserve? Do you deserve a man who left you, puts you down, and is abusive? Absolutely not. If you can’t tell yourself you’re worth more, I will tell you– You are worth being treated like the beautiful person you are. THERE IS SOMEONE OUT THERE WHO WOULD KILL TO BE WITH YOU. Just because you haven’t met him yet does not mean it cannot happen. Life likes to take its’ time.
Your relationship did not work out and although it is hard to see it now, some day you will be thankful. Although you may think your ex-husband was the one, this truly is a blessing in disguise. Why? Because after the pain and tears, it will lead you onto the pathway of finding your TRUE love.
And although not feeling lonely anymore doesn’t happen over time, give yourself the OPPORTUNITY to find the time and let life handle the pieces as they fall where they may.
Seeing a psychiatrist would greatly help your emotions and finding a logical and non-harmful solution to your loneliness.
Please hang in there and stay strong! You are a beautiful person and you ARE worth the fight. Life is a difficult battle, some lost and some won. But in the very end, when you’re a very happy, old woman, you’ll be happy you realized you’re worth more than this. You’ll be thankful you gave yourself a second chance.
Hey Natalie,
Thanks for being an encouragement. I also pray that everything will go well with you.
God bless!
Dont worry , just believe in god with true heart, u might find a new path, my frnd life is to short to live in regrets.
Back pain for last 1and half years is debilitating want to die, i used to be a playful now its all history, life is scikening iam only 30years already debilitated, feel like dying but my mother is alone cant leave her what to do, i want to die cannot bear this
Hey,
I’m going to be praying for your back. I’ve seen lots of miracles happen regarding people getting healed. Even I have a story of pain similar to yours. I shattered my femur in over 25 places and had a really tough time, till God healed me. http://45.79.203.169/life-after-death
hey, justin u r so nice …u r praying for others ,giving them strength ,God bless u justin.
Jagdamba,
Thank you for the encouragement, I appreciate it very much 🙂
“God bless those who bless me, touch there lives and show them Your awesomeness, In Your name Jesus, Amen”
i have a rib problem 7 months ago ,i cant do any of the things i use to like,and iknow by now that this pain in my ribs and back is not going anywhere,so iam absolutely depresss getting worst day by day and iam thinking seriously to kill me asoon as possible any suggestions of how to do it in a way that looks like an accident so my family dont suffer that much
Jay,
First off your family would suffer if you weren’t there, along with your friends. I too suffered a serious motor cycle accident that put me at a near death experience. Though, I prayed to Jesus to heal me, and He did. There are so many miracles that God is ready to do if we will but put faith in Him. As this is the only thing that pleases Him. I’m praying for you Jay. God bless!
hey justin, i am a boy of 16yrs i am just busted up.my friends,peers and sometimes my parents make fun of me — the reason being i am not gud at anything neither academics nor i have a goodfriend.sometimes i feel that i am nowhere just lost , cannot convey my feelings to anywhere.suffering from insomnia and the thoughts of suicide constantly distubs me and make me sad everytime.praying to the almighty for a change but noyhing seems to work……..iam really messed up dont know what to do
Hey Sammy,
I don’t by any means claim to have all the answers. What I can do is pray for you. I know its hard living with family as the ones that you are closer too, are the ones that can hurt you the most. I’m going to be praying for peace in your life so that you can sleep better and know who you are in the eyes of God. You have a purpose in this world, and even though when it seems like everybody is against you. You are worth a lot bro, be strong.
God bless!
Same here buddy. But dont worry coz dere is alwz a shinning day after stromy nite….
I always feel very lonely.
Hey,
To make friends you have to make yourself friendly. Don’t give you, as its easy to make friends. Think of others first.
I’ll be praying for you!
thanks justin….
Your welcome Sammy. God bless you!
Hello Justin,
I ask for forgiveness first from his holiness as well as wish good things to those who have received his blessing. I am in a rough spot at the moment, having no car – car accident due to a seizure/ totaled luckily insurance covered most of the car loan. I currently walk to work which is good for not having to pay gas however in high heat and even rain i will endure the temperature to get to work. I was currently on a seven day work week from having three people at work go through various shift changes so taking the brunt of the responsibility. As to stress and health i run as well as do martial arts exercises every other day before and even after work sometimes when it pitch dark outside – i dont smoke/ dont drink/ and no sex. As to all this after work i even clean up the children and teen’s mess to help out around home as well as help with dinner and chores when needed. I feel overworked and underpaid due to the experience of having seven jobs going through the military but was discharged prior to completing boot camp with seizures. I work in the customer service healthcare industry and been going through job changes during that time. As to my current stress having no friends except for the acquantinences at work and going from work and home and doing that repeatedly without a time to relax as in vacation or even a time to hang with a girlfriend – wish i had but my work schedule and transportation situation limited all that. I am at the point where i would like to know what i am doing but i feel i am hitting my head against the wall and putting up the good fight like rocky until something great comes along. Its been a very long road and im constantly trying my best to improve every skill i can however i can only do so much given the situations that i have. As to the message i just wanted to share this its better for others to understand and to contemplate it while giving room for understanding so id like to hear from you on what i can on positive feedback and solutions.
Thank you
Hey Sean,
I feel for you. I was recently where you were at six months ago. I really didn’t know what to do as I was working 2 jobs and a small biz. I was still living from paycheck to paycheck and was never getting anywhere. Even though I had seen so many miracles, I was praying for another. Sometimes the solution is right in our face and sometimes its right around the corner. The only thing to do is pray and ask God what to do. He will speak to you. “I am the Good Shepard, I know my sheep and my sheep know me” John 10:14 We are just like sheep to, dumb. We need to be told where to go. Sheep are also quiet blind and need to be told where there is some grass so that we can eat. Its really a great analogy of how we are ment to trust in God. I’m going to def be praying for you, and who knows maybe my missionary story will be one that you are familiar with down the road.
Keep in touch, praying for you!
hi justin
im 14 and i feel as though no one cares for me i am a determined person but no one wants to listen to me or put me in the things i love. i feel that dieing will change their lifes and say how much they love me when they dont
Hey Kelly,
Without vision there is no hope. So I ask you what do you want to get become? What purpose do you have inside of you? Don’t allow other people to shut down your vision. You are very special and have a great purpose. Proving a point by killing yourself is truly a wasted life. You are still very young and have a bright future. “Enter through the narrow gate. For wide is the gate and broad is the road that leads to destruction, and many enter through it. 14 But small is the gate and narrow the road that leads to life, and only a few find it.” Matt 7:13-14 Take hold of a vision that will drive you to live a narrow road, even if others can’t understand. I’m going to be praying for you Kelly; praying for peace and vision upon your life.
God bless!
hi justin
i was lost financials, i want die, I LOVE MY FAMILY
Hey Kishan,
I’m going to be praying for you. I know how it is too lose everything and want to take a short cut out of life. It won’t solve anything, especially if there is a personal God who wrote the Bible for us, and all those words are true. I’m glad you have love for your family especially, as they would be heart broken if anything happened to you. I always want to tell you that money comes and goes. Your health and family are far more important. Praying for you Kishan
hi justin,
i m 42 year old gay person.till the age of 40 things were fairly quite fine with me.i had a job in a reputed company.i never had any steady partner,although i missed that i was never unhappy.i was in search.2010 april i lost my job first.i started doing a small fancy jewellery business.it was not doing too good but i somewhat managed.on august end i meet this person in my life.he started coming to my house,after one month he accepted our relation and wanted to be a partner to my life.that was the most beautiful day in my life,a straight guy accepting a relation with me,i was overjoyed and told him you are god sent.things soon changed after that.happiness gave away to sadness.soon i found out his attraction was more for women and he lusted for women body.i never got enough love.i could not leave him,even though i tried many time,i was so deeply in love with him.with all the shortcoming i was with him.my mother passed away on march 2011 leaving me shattered.november 2011 my partner decided to leave me forever.i cried ,begged fallen on his feet,not to give this pain.i said my mother left me ,you please do not leave me alone.devil was on him,he gave a deaf ear,walked off leaving me devasted.its not that all the faults are with him,i have done several mistakes,its all part of a relationship,i never had the guts to shoo him away.to day after 4 months i am financially devasted,mentally tormented,tortured to the core,not able to forget him for one moment,what a pain it is i cant express.going to bed and geting up with the same feeling,it is stuck in my heart like a tumour.it is a severe pain unable to bear it.i prayed to god to help me erase this pain or do some wonder so that he forgives me and comes back we forget all the indifferences between us and start a new life.no amount of anything is helping.i have lost the meaning of life to live.each day has become a torture.i cant stay alone anymore…..please see before i take any firm decision,if u can help me.
Hey,
I think we all understand what its like to have our heart broken, but it won’t fill that empty space in your heart no matter how much you try. You first have to become whole and then add somebody to your life. I’m sure your well aware that the Bible talks about not dating the same sex. That means its a sin and will never give you peace or joy, but just the opposite. Its a temporary thing that feels good, that leads to a road of pain. “22 But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, longsuffering, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, 23 gentleness, self-control. Against such there is no law.” Gal 5:22-23
I want to let you know nobody hates you. I love gay people very much, and only wish them well. I do know our society has accepted it these days as being “righteous” but its not. We have to change our way of thinking. “If we think the way we’ve always thought we’ll continue to get what we’ve always got.” I can promise you if you slow down and seek God then He will draw near to you (james 4:8). Your in the prayers of many, God bless!
I was born with a terrible disease call neurofibromas. It causes nothing but pain and stress. I’m depressed 99% of the time. My life is horrible! Nothing seems to be going right. I prayed and did all of the things I was suppose to. I’m always helping people and putting everyone before me. I was told to pray and stay faithful to God. I’ve been praying for years and years and God has done nothing for me ever. What do I do when God himself turns his back on me. I’m tired of being in pain and crying every night. I use to believe God loved every one, but I truly don’t believe that anymore. I suffer each and everyday for no reason. I even asked God to take me off the earth, since I’m such a bad of a person. I can’t even get that, so I’m still here. Dose God like to see people in pain. What dose a person do when God himself doesn’t care about you?
Hey,
I know life doesn’t seem fair, but that doesn’t mean God hates you. Just the opposite, as God loves everyone. “38 For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons,[a] neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, 39 neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.” – Romans 8:38-39
I too have had my fair experience of pain which you can read here… http://45.79.203.169/life-after-death I want you to know that God does still do miracles as He’s a living God for the living. I’ll be praying for you to see this as well. Stop looking at how big your problems are and start looking how big God is. You ever notice Jesus would heal so many people and always said “its by your faith that you are made well”. Its not by Jesus’ faith, but the other person’s. Continue praying and don’t stop. Ask God if He will heal you and wait to hear His voice. He does speak, and He does care about you!
God bless, praying for you!
nobody listens to me. Nobody cares…..
Hey Ashley,
That is not true, I care and I’m listening. Also, did you check out that website http://jesus2020.com ? I want to share with you a verse “How precious to me are your thoughts, O God! How vast is the sum of them! Were I to count them, they would outnumber the grains of sand. When I awake, I am still with you.” Psalm 139:17-18 God is thinking about you, and He cares. He’s willing to come to you. “Draw close to God and God will draw close to you” James 4:8
Praying for you Ashley, God bless!
Hey, this is my first time I’ve tried to seek help so the story maybe long as I have much to get off my chest.. But I may be rusty because I don’t feel comfortable doing this… But here goes.. I’ve had a rough history through eating disorders and unfortunate severe life threatening injuries from such young ages to this present day. Yet I’ve never had these suicidal thoughts as I was too young (starting from the age of 8)… For all I’ve been through I found a reason to live at the age of 15.. (being seriously unwell for 7 years), I found someone who helped me through the darkness and pain as she had previous health issues and knew how to look after me. But not only was she my best friend, she was also my girlfriend. Although, I love my family to pieces she was the one and only reason that made me look forward to waking up in the morning… However, I never had any thoughts of suicide.. Im currently 19 years old now and haven’t been with this girl for a year now (I was 15 when i started going out with her and ended when I was 18).. Those years changed my life massively and I’ve grown to fall in love with her. Now I’m not one of those people to throw that word around, I’ve only ever told my parents and this one girl that I love them before.. But before meeting her I was a misunderstood person. Having many friends, opportunities, “talents” and “looks” although I disagree, people actually really like me, many people say they want to be like me.. But if only they knew as these are the people who doesn’t know about my dark side of life as I am known to be far too independant for my own good. The fact of this matter is I’ve spent 9.9/10 of my nights crying into a pillow watching the hours go by without sleep, litterally within this year I’ve ate much less than half of those days because I can’t eat.. I feel another disorder growing but whoever can relate to me would know its not as simple to “just eat”.. I find a place to sit on my own to drink alcohol and just cry.. Singing our old songs and looking at pictures of us just because she loved it when I used to sing.. In my mind we are still together and I’ve actually prayed we would get back together because I put my heart and soul into her.
I feel so discgusted because during our time apart my Nana passed away and I realised if I honestly had the choice to be with this girl or to have my Nana back (I was so close to my Nana) I would honestly choose this girl. Because my Nana has lived her life, she’s raised her sons well and she isn’t in pain anymore.. Plus she wants me and her other grandchildren to grow happy. So many thoughts surround my head and its became a fact that without this girl I can’t go on, I need her, I found happiness through the darkness and its gone. I’m back in the darkness without her.. I’ve cheated death.. I’ve attempted suicide previous times but it just didn’t kill me “/.. I can’t live like this anymore 🙁 i feel like my future.. My future family is gone and life is just a mocking reminder of these issues…
Jordan,
I’m glad you were able to get it off your chest. I do recommend being able to find somebody else you can share “some” of this with. They maybe able to help you further as well. Your eatting disorder is only a symptom of something deeper. Its not permanent unless you allow it to control you. I know you read my story and maybe the other stories as well, but God is a living God who loves you. “32 He who did not spare his own Son, but gave him up for us all—how will he not also, along with him, graciously give us all things?” Romans 8:32
Its time to make a change for the better and stop thinking like this. Sometimes you have to lose something and let it go to get it back. Other times you just have to let go because something better is coming even when you don’t think so. God knows best and if you will trust in Him to have His way for your life, then it will be better. His thoughts are higher than our thoughts, His ways are higher than our ways. Don’t pray to God like He’s a med kit, but pray to Him with reverence as He’s an Almighty God who truly is everywhere.
Praying for you Jordan
Heyy,
Pls tell me how to die im really depressed….and i just wannna die…..
tell me the way in which it would hurt me lesss……or maybe tell me the ways of how can i get out of depression.
Hey Shiva,
I told you how I got out of depression by praying. I do know you shouldn’t go at this alone, seek help from somebody. I recommend you contact the guys at http://jesus2020.com they will be able to email you back and forth. Also, try picking up that book I recommended on this page, Battlefield of the Mind.
Praying for you
how can i die easily. tell me a methi just hate to live. each and everyday is becoming like a hell. my father is getting a very high salary. so if i die it wont affect my family financially and my brother is there to look after them. please tell it. it is very urgent
Hey Aran,
Killing yourself will solve nothing if there is a heaven and hell. And if there is a heaven and hell do you know where you’d go? Jesus says “I am the way the truth and the life and no one can come to the Father except through me” The bible also talks about a everlasting fire for those who do not submit their lives to God. I hope you will understand the seriousness as God is a living God. I have many stories of prayers being answered , just read some of my other posts. Praying for you Aran, God bless!
I love my sister alot, she left me today for no reason, life really sucks, i dont know what to do? Please help me with a good advice,
Im still 18, i have my university exam this year, i coudnt concentrate in my studies, but if i die my mom wil be alone, an my brothers will miss me, but i want to come out of this pain, reply asap
Princess,
I know life can be hard sometimes, especially when those closest to us hurt us. That doesn’t mean they want you to die, even if it did you need to think about your own wellbeing. You don’t have to live like this and I’m glad your at least able to think of your other family members. I’m going to be praying for you, I suggest you do the same as God is a living God who is the same yesterday, today, and forever. Read some of my other stories as it will encourage your faith.
God bless!
hi justin i am depressed veteren who hates life my ptsd has me alienated from everyone and i am hoping for a swift end to it all. i have done so many horrible things in the name of freedom and i just want to die so that i can be at peace but my concience will not let me kill myself no matter how hard i try. i so want the peace of death i beg god for it each day. i feel like he mocks me by leaving me here where i have so much pain each day.
Hey,
I can relate to wanting to die because of pain. I was in a serious motorcycle accident which you can read here: http://45.79.203.169/life-after-death I also prayed to God everyday to take me away because I lived on a bed for more than 6 months suffering in extreme pain. I also relate to having done horrible things, but there is hope. God knows people are corrupt without him. God is very much alive and if we seek Him with all of our heart He will speak to us. Its written in the Bible that He speaks to us like a Shepard speaks to His sheep. “22 But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, longsuffering, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, 23 gentleness, self-control. Against such there is no law.” Gal 5:22-23
The Apostle Paul, killed thousands of Christians before He found the Truth; the truth about who Jesus really was. He was forgiven of his sins, and you too can be forgiven and filled with the fruit of the Spirit. I’m praying for you. There is hope, God bless!
I just wannna die.. please tell me how to die without going through any pain.. I cant bear the pain anymore.. n yaa dont encourage me or tell me any other stuff except methods to die.. U dont know how hard i have tired to be happy, to live life.. Please dont pray for me like u do for others.. cuzz i know its not gonna help.. No one will understand what i m going through now.. Actually they might bt i wont tell.. Its all cuzz of me.. All cuzz of that stpid mistake of loving someone.. Please tell the methods.. Thanks..!!!
Hey Monishka,
You know good and well there is hope, you’ve read this story of mine where I found hope. There was also another time in my life where I continued to pray for God to take me, every single day. When I had my motorcycle accident I lived on a bed for more than 6 months suffering from extreme pain. http://45.79.203.169/life-after-death I know what it is like as well to having lost somebody close. It isn’t fun at all. I also can’t promise I won’t be praying for you, because through prayer is how I found that God was alive and well, and that He cared for me, even though my life was a mess.
If you kill yourself it won’t solve anything, especially when you find out there is a heaven and hell. Do you know where your going?
Praying for you Monishka, God bless!
hi…
my friend facing very problem with their family members she was very irritating with them.. she doing job in her office also facing irritating colloquies are very irritating with their behaviors the reason is only one she very strict and hard worker.. in some situations she think about die.. in that situations i will tell her very much and make her ok but i wanna clear her total problems what to do,,,
Hey Vinnu,
Well, you’ve read how I was released from stress. By praying to a God who is alive and well. I know it isn’t the answer most are looking for but there is peace when you know God is for you and that He truly does care. Question is do you know Him? I’m not sure if you read any of my other posts but they are all full of miracles, even witnessed a miracle of healing yesterday. God is the same yesterday, today and forever. My problems were much worse than irritating people not long ago. http://45.79.203.169/life-after-death But of course I can relate to that as well. I used to work 2 jobs and a business and both of my bosses were corrupt. One went out of his way to yell at you and make your life hell, the other was very deceiving. I’m praying for you and your friend. I hope you find the Truth in my posts, about the God who loves you. God bless!
Hi, justin
I feel like noone cares about and im always gettin left behind i just feel angry all the.time and i dont like it i keep on having suicidal thoughts but i just dont wanna miss the new experiences in the world but sometimes i just feel that killing myself will make me feel better and just start a new life, im really confused!?!
Hey Marley,
Who said when you die that you get to start a new life? My Bible talks about there being a heaven and everlasting fire called hell. That when you die your spirit leaves your body and enters into a spiritual realm. I’m not sure on all your beliefs but I have seen the evidence of a living God in my life on many occasions and I can tell you that He does care for you. He created the heavens and the earth. He doesn’t want you to live in pain nor kill yourself. His thoughts for you are numbered as the sand is to the sea. Do not take your own life but seek after God who is able to give you love, joy, peace, and gentleness. He made everything, including you…He knows best. Praying for you. I hope you take the time to read my other posts. God bless!
I have lost a son to cancer. I have a son that is recovering from addiciton. i have a son that just stays away from all our family pain. I have a son that simply doesn’t understand the pain so has disowned all of us. I have 9 more kids that still love and need us but i am wore out tired of fighting just be easier to die
Mom,
I’m very sorry to hear about your son. I know its not easy, but ending your life would do the same to all of your other children. That is not the path you want to take. In all things our attitude will determine how we view our situations. You can choose to live in peace and freedom because God has given His son for us. I know I am being religious here, but I’ve seen God heal so many people and do so many miracles in my own life, that it’s impossible for me not to believe! He can do the same for you! I’m going to be praying for you, also check out how God healed me from a near death experience.
hi justin,i hate being alive, this is the way i feel and ive tried to change it but cant help being disappointed with this world and everyone in it: i dont belong here, i dont want anything, nothing interests me, i want to be left alone,i dont care to go anywhere or see anyone, and literally everyone lies and lies to take what little the other might have, ive learned that many people are just plain evil they dont care what happens to you or your family,they dont think twice about doing you wrong, ive not met one person who cant take advantageof another, its sad, this world is sad, do i have to be like that-a theif and lier and manipulating person to want to live? cus i cant..you look everywhere crime drugs rude people everywhere,and something that really tortures me…pets being mistreated, i have a little chiguaga and my heart aches just thinking the wrongs mean people do to defenseless animals around the world–my heart breaks completely, i cant help it i see and feel their pain sorrow and loneliness,imagine there are many suffering in my city alone, i DONT belong HERE i keep telling God he dont listen because he’s too busy channeling all his love and radience to justin beaver, lady gaga, angelina joli and all her bless ed family….i really cant wait to go home i know im going to heaven i dont know how many times ive accepted jesus about 20 at least..but apparently hes not availble…you might say “you have to help yourself before he can listen” but im tired of trying that i have no strengh left in me..and please dont ask me to find the streanght because its lost..i dont want any help i just want to be home, ..whats so wrong with wishing that..were all going there anyways..so please pray i die soon and pray it to be painless like in my sleep or something like that, cuz thats what i want and he gave us free will…
Hey,
You are right that this world is very mean. I don’t like it either and have also wished to die when I broke my leg in 25 places, even after accepting Jesus. I prayed many nights because I was in such terrible pain. You can read about it here http://45.79.203.169/life-after-death Also, I know you may be in need for strength so I will be praying for you. Please check out http://45.79.203.169/prayer-for-healing God bless you!
i’m only 15 but i’ve been feeling so depressed that I have been getting suicidal thoughts for a long time now
i have very low self esteem..”socially-awkward”..i get too self conscious..
…whether it’s in school or at home…everyone just sees the “wrong” things I have done
…there is no one to defend me…everyone hates me for some very low reason or another…I get insulted and bullied….there’s a really heavy feeling in my chest…..there’s no one to talk to about my problems…my life is meaningless…:'(
Hey Nina,
Your life is not meaningless, you have a purpose. I don’t know that purpose but God has called you out. I want you to check out a book called “battlefield of the mind by joyce meyer” It will really help you. Also, don’t be so concerned about what other people think of you, its none of your business anyways. If you live for a purpose and have vision then it won’t matter anyhow. So begin to pray for that. Check out http://45.79.203.169/prayer-for-healing as God heals depression too! Praying for you Nina!
dont know how to start this off but i wanna die how did u get through life..
my mother blames meh for her life going wrong but she said she dont mean it ….
my father calls me worthless …im only 16 i used to cut my self to take the pain away
but i made a promise to god not to cut anymore bout 3 years ago i never failed him…but my relationship with him not so good i dont think god will forgive
me for my sins and i dont wanna get close to god then fail him again …faller has became a big part on my life i dont kno what im doing typing this but im tried off fighting this on my on ..my family moved 100miles away from my grandfather and my cussin …i have no one i think bout cutting myself all day but i dont wanna lose the last thing i mabye have in life going for me god………no next steps in life but suicide…my mom and dad are not so
close to god anymore now its kinda just pretending i guess i know they have a lot on there plate but they cant see what has come of me until theres no more me…..my head is so messed up i fill depression and cutting is just a part of life it became apart of me just help
Hey Justin,
I am 13 and go through depression and suicidal thoughts everyday .. my dad is actually in a home getting help for this disease in which he is depressed and couldnt handle it any longer .. well i have thought about committing suicide .. but i honestly dont want to die all i want is to have this depression go away and have all these thoughts be gone .. i know some day i may just have the worst day and it’ll come down to suicide .. but i dont feel like this is the choice .. all i want is too be happy and not have to think about depression and suicide … what do i do ?
there’s this girl with whom i’m in since i was 15(now i’m 20) but she doesn’t love me and even care about me………so i want to die.life seems so hopeless without her….n also there are so many problems for me in my life any thing i ever wanted would always vanish away from me just feel like dying right now..
if god really loves me then why the bloody hell do i have so many problems…….it even looks like god doesn’t want me to be happy……..i just wish that i was never born
I was a good kid. I never cussed, dated, or did much of anything that “bad” kids did. I was extremely quiet and “nice” from kindergarten all the way till 4 years after high school. During these years I struggled with depression and suicide really really bad. I couldnt understand it, the more I prayed and loved Jesus the worse I got. During middle school and high school I had dozens of girls asking me out (yes they actually initiated with me) but I basically ignored all of them even though in my heart I desperately wanted them and would go home and dream about them. I had good parents and safe surroundings in suburbia. Im tall, athletic, and girls always compliment my eyes but I HATED myself. I was the best at football and basketball at high school but I purposely tried to be bad cuz I didnt want to be noticed, and I eventually quit to my dads rightful disgust. I hate sports anyway and dont watch them, I should have done music. I lived in my imagination, and still do, because I couldnt accept my life, as a result I had no life and people called me out on it even though I never talked to them. Somehow people knew that I was holding back everything about me. The popular kids actually wanted me to snap out of it and hang out with them but I never did, and contined to lie in the social shadows for no reason.
Then when I turned 23 this past february I finally understood what was wrong with me. From a very early age I disrespected myself and pushed my heart longings aside because I respected and feared other people too much. I tried to make Jesus my life and let Him run things but I know now that I need to run things according to what He teaches and what my soul longs for. I realize now I should have dated all the girls I wanted to. I should have pushed away my hate for myself and did what I wanted to do and act a little (bad). I kinda wish I have excuses for how depressed I got such as a broken family, poverty, abuse etc. but I dont, I just abused myself and there is little sympathy for that. I finally respect myself more but the past huants me majorly when it comes to girls. I had so many chances that I wasted. I see a girl with nice legs and sweet face in public and I go to my car and cry because I have no chance anymore. I married a nice girl out of the blue last year because I was desperate and I hated myself but shes the wrong one and I truly know that now. I was trying to erase all my mistakes but I just made a bigger one. Im hopeless. I really need a huge life change, and I mean new job, new city, new friends. Suicide is creeping back into my soul. Im trying to finally live out what my heart is telling me but its hard and really too late for a lot of things. I hope to serve Jesus whole hearteldly but my heart is split from regret and lost opportunities. Sometimes I do get better but I wake up the next morning and my mistakes are there glaring in my face. Im a broken man, just like I was a broken kid sitting in kindergaten thinking about how worthless and stupid I am. Haha there goes a tear. I need help.
I’m so depressed all the time. My life is shit. What makes it worse is seeing other people happy and having fun. I have no friends, I just stay at home all day, don’t have any motivation to do my uni work. I’m a born again christian and pray but nothing ever happens. I ask god to kill me but he can’t even do that. Don’t get me wrong, I love the lord, but I hate my life and don’t want to live. The only thing stopping me from suicide is fear of going to hell, but sometimes I think I rather go hell then stay here. It’s so unfair.
What if I’m an atheist?
Any one can probably Imagine that i am addressing my concern on this forum means i am thinking about suicide, Painless Death. Gun, Hanging, Train, Jumping from the building all are painful and chances of survival are very high. Here is my Idea Have high dosage of Marijuana, take some sleeping pills and drink some PESTICIDE milk shake. You will die painlessly in an Hour.
Well here is my story I am only 25 and was diagnosed with Acid Reflux 3 years ago, till date I am unable to sleep well, ages of sleepless nights and heartburn. Since 6 Months Severe Knee pain and since last 3 days unbearable knee pain cant wank, sit , stand.
Since last 2 Months Severe Back Pain Swollen Spine and shoulder blade pain and Muscular tissue in the neck.
Here I am swirling in pain all the time life is miserable cannot eat well, cannot drink well, cannot move, bend at least cannot drink alcohol, cannot go out with friends, I have no real friend, Unable to continue my job, money problem every end seems to be a dead end. I am just waiting for time to cure my problems
I cannot take painkillers or orthopedic medicines as they exacerbate Acid Reflux my whole life is a Dead-Lock and I have nothing left.
Lets see I have saved my PESTICIDE milk shake for future when all options exhaust.
I seriously do not what to do, or rather what I can do.
My whole entire life is pretty much mapped out by my family, from the people im ‘allowed’ to be friends with to the stuff i’m ‘allowed’ to vent out about in my so-called diary.
I feel like i have sneak away from my family to anything and everything I want, which isn’t much. (Chatting with random friends, writing little stories, listening to music/killing time)
I don’t know, before I was more or less okay with it because I always had this one person there for me. Though I guess I just started to take that person for granted and well, they’re not here anymore (for me at least).
I mean, we still talk now and then but it’s so awkward and distant that I can’t bear it.
And then there’s the fact that my family didn’t ‘approve’ of the person to begin with.
I would run away from them in a moment if I could, but, since these days I’m not even, technically, allowed to go outside anymore…
(They’re not outwardly grounding me, just putting limitations on where I can go and how long I can go -no more than 80-100 feet outside the house and I must come back every 15 minutes)
What did I do wrong to have this all happen to me?
I started being ‘myself’-being happy for once- and not the little girl who followed every little whim of what my family wanted without putting in an opinion of my own.
My whole life I’ve been living in a beautiful little lie; and the one time I speak the truth, everything collapses.
So what’s better? Living as puppet my whole entire life, or…
I know, you’re probably going to say that when I am 18 i’ll be able to make my own decisions and what not but that’s never going to happen.
When I say mapped out…I mean it.
They already have the college and major I will be taking aaaaaaand…yes I know it sounds very Elizabethan and all but..
They technically already have a ‘husband’ for me ( I am 14…) Weelll…not a husband but a list of people from whom I will get married to (mostly sons’ of business colleagues of dad’s)
hi justin,
i have done a mistake in my life with my girlfriend.thts y she has to leave me.but she does’nt know tht she left me bcoz of my mistake.i realise my mistake front of god..but now i want to die..i lost my love bcoz of my mistake…i love her alot..
:-(::::::
Hello.my name is charley and I wanna die.I won’t tell u why but I wanna just say as I’m not even a teen yet I have a lot of stressful things going on and death is a way out.an easy way out.any ideas?
Hey I have the hardest life ever it just seems I would be better off dead. Today at school I had gotten yelled at by my gym teacher for not trying and I always try to the best of my availability. I just feel that I need my life to start over. It seems that I am not the cool popular kid that everybody loves or I have never dated anybody either. What can I do for a change in my life to make it better and not think of dying all the time.
i am 17 years old whos parents hate each other,has a son at the age of 16 and doesnt get to see him,i have one eye from an accident that happened to me when i was ten,and has anger problems and some depprison from everything going on in my life. since i was born my family and I have loved god and prayed everyday of my life since I have turned 17 and from this day nothing good has really happened in my life from 1 to 17,and i’ve always prayed for good things for at least to not see my parents fight or let me see my son and nothing happened. now what i come to realize now is and what im starting to think is that i just wasted my whole life in just prayer and loving god and now when i start to realize this it really scares when i think likes this, I know deep down in me i still have faith but just really nothing has showed me that he is here and it sad for me to think that way but yea so if you can just give some advice please
Pls tell to I want to die no hopes. On my life I hate my life I hate myself each and every second dying I want to die pls pray for me
I am sandhya
i want to die and my life waste .and i am missing one person that’s y
HEY JUSTIN I HAVE NO POINT OF LIVING CAUSE EVERY ONE KEEPS BULING ME FOR NO RESON THATS WHY IFEEL LIKE JUST ENDING MY LIFE SO PLEASE HELP ME CAUSE I FEEL LIKE PEOPLE HATE ME SO PLEASE SHOW ME A WAY
I am sandhya my father and mother not understand me and i am in love with one person that y but we are not in setteld that’s the problem.
HOW THE HELL CAN YOU DIE EASILY??
hi,i lose my love.she left me alone.i want die.:-(::::
My parents got divorced at the beginning of last year and things have been rough on my siste and me since they split up. I used to be depressed while they were still together but I thought it would get better once my dad was in a seperate house but it hasn’t been. He is the worst person I could ever to think of to have as a gather sometimes. I’m failing at school, I feel like my sister hates me, and I don’t think anyone in my family even cares about me anymore. I feel all alone in the world and I just want to die.. What should I do?
I am sanju I am in love with one person and i just inform to my mother but no one can not undestand me.
Hi,
I dun agree wid this fact that everything could change wid small prayer. wt things are meant to be, they happen. im 25 yrs old, n i can certainly say that. i hv seen miracle happening in ppl lives but not mine. u knw the reason? reason is not that ppl prayed .. it was because GOD wanted it that way….
i want to kill myself today. i’ve possed ponned that for to long
You People are BS When a preson types how can i DIE we don’t need well wishers like you f-ing it (PLANS) up for us
am relly messed up…both in my love life and wit one wit my family….i have lost completly…i took 15 sleeping pills now will i die……am sacred…if i die its fine but then if i am alive am very sacred of it….suggest me something
You read my story, and there is hope. There is a God who cares for you, His name is Jesus. I’m in prayer for you right now that those pills will not work, but your life will be spared and you will see God’s power upon your life. When you read this you will know what I say is true. You must surrender to God to live a life of joy. Taste and see that the Lord is good.
You can stick your god somewhere. There is no god, you are deluded as are all who believe in a kind of deity and there is only survival of the fittest via evolution, we, who want to die-commit suicide, are just weak and from evolutionary standpoint it is better for us die to strengthen the gene pool and increase the chances of the survival of humankind.
Ex-Christian
George,
Its like this, if I were about to drink a cup of poison, but didn’t know it. Though, you did and you didn’t say anything. Would that make you guilty of my death? Its the same way. I know the truth and I’m trying to spread it, because God has done so many radical miracles in my own life. In the past 2 months I’ve seen over 50 people healed, from deaf ears to incurable diseases. Even in my own life I experience His power nearly on a daily basis. Read about my near death experience.
hi justin,
i am 22 years old. my life full of pain, i don’t want to live any more. my parents makes fun of me… i already tried 5 times sucide. and m still trying to… every time the sucide thoughts disturbs me a lot. but every time when m trying that i just pray to god that please give me some more time to live. my life full of failures. i fail all times… the unluckiest person in the world is myself. pray for me to live happily with my family or pray for me to die to make other’s happy.
Rajasekhar,
I will be praying that your life will be a blessing to many people. Its never too late to change our thinking. Its our attitude that determines how we view our life. You are not a failure! We all make mistakes, but have to learn from them so we don’t repeat them. Praying for you!
I damnly want to die. I’m very much depressed. My family not encouraging me. They are comparing me with other fellows. Even though I got job they r comparing me with my age group fellows and discouraging me. My mom is my only motivator. whn she is not in my home my family members starts speaking about others who r in good position. I have lots and lots of skills but because of my family members I cant shine myself. I’m dumped. My skills r dumped. I damnly want to die… I lost many things in my life.. I want to die… !!!
hi nw name is aishu i stay in india i have to die plz get me some ideas to die
see nothin is going on rite wit me..i do good to people and people take me wrong always way is it lik that???is there any value for good people as of now???evryone hurts me to the core…some third person yells at me…how would i feel…i seriously wanna die…..i am not courageous to take up life…mom is suffering from cancer…all the way i have pressure no one is giving me space even to take a single breath…i love my guy so much and he feels am a pain..and one of his friend comes up to me telling “ur giving so much pain to him,so am suggesting him to break up”.by mistake i saw my guys cell so i came to know all these…truth is always very bitter and n human is trustworthy…i don wanna tell this to my friends as they will feel my guy is bad….i waana cry badly…pls i waana die tell me…i cant take more pain in my life pls…..this is jus few things i have shared wit u….the whole thing will be worse than this…am insane,not able to do anythin…help me….though my character is good people tell something and all to my guy…i literally saw all the msgs in his cell so am not able to control my emotions…..its better i end up instead living life lik this filled and overflowing only wit sorrow&tears..reply fast pls
jUSTIN,
I WANT TO DIE!!!!!!!!!
HI I AM MAADIE AND I AM 13 YEARS OLD AND HERE ARE MY PROBLEMS DO YOU THINK YOU CAN HELP
ME???
iT SEEMS LIKE NOBODY CARS ABOUT ME ANYMORE ITS LIKE THEY ALL HAVE GIVEN UP ON ME!!!! ANS SEE I AM IN FOSTER CARE RIGHT NOW IN A GROUP HOME BECAUSE MY MOTHER DEBBBIE DIDNT WANT ME ANY MORE ALL SHE DID WAS GO OUT AND DRINK, PARTY, AND YOU KNOW THAT TEEN STUFF THAT PARENTS DO NOT WANT 2 GIVE UP AND SHE WOULD ALWAYS BE OUT DRINKING AND STUFF AND MY LITTLE BROTHER Eric who just turned 9 years old and my little sister Roxanne who is 6 would be at home by ourself’s do you know how hard it is to take care of 2 kids and me only being 10 at the time well it started when i was about 7 years old and man it was really hard because i had no idea what to do or what i was doing and my mother is a mother to 6 kids and none of us have the same dad execpt for the oldest to wich is Deborah and Ricky
and his moth on the 25 i will have been in foster care for 2 years now but it will only be a year for the group home i am in. and when i call my mom she always blames it on me thats its my fault that i ended up where im at and she’s always like you know its all your fault that you got tooken away from me and alot more stuff! so can you please tell me what i shuold do or say to her when she says and does this stuff to me? because she will be like “you would be better of dead then still be living you would be doing the whole world a favor if you would just kill yourself” and I took her word and have tried to kill myself just like she said I should because i really thought I would be doing the world a favor like she said i should do!! so will you please help me what should i do??? I want to kill myself!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
hey buddy,
i love a girl , she loves me very much but i dont konw wot happened she suddenly lost intrest in me , n i want to end my lyf please help me to get courage to get myself killed
Suicide sound like the easy way out sometimes, this has gone threw my mine several times…
Seem like I am living a hell in soo many ways, life is not that great seem like god only has his chosen ones!
I have tried praying and asking for his blessing. I have try reading the bible and all that is good to try to bring me hop but at the end it’s all rubbish, I have grown to hat him and all that is holy. I am now on my own and it’s not that great. Sometime I believe that Jesus is playing a crew joke on me as if I was his Ginny pig or he is not really real.
I’m just venting at the moment but maybe at the end I will carry on with suicide as day by day passes I feel that hop is not knocking at my door steps ever.
I want to die. I dont have the reason to live in this place. I dont know how to face this trials that God gave me.. Does God even love me?? I think not, He doesnt even help me to face my trials, maybe i’ve been a very very very very bad child…..I dont deserve living here .. everyday and night i think that it would be nice if I die. please help me…. I worst than a kid having a cancer…
sory for my bad english.
where is god, if he realy exist, i dont think he got intrest in this dirty world, i’ll just go to him and ask him why did he created everything, my prblm is nothing i know so many people are suffrng frm many prblms more than me but i just cant say, if there is really life after death really justin i dont want that. i dont want thats it. daily i felt if i wont wake up in the morning huh.
SORY I CANT SAY THOSE BAD WORDS HERE I JUST CANT SAY MY PROBLEM …………….
I just feel like I have no one to run to. I know I can run to God I just don’t know how and what I’m doing wrong because everything feels like its just getting worst. I don’t know what else to do and I have bp medicine to bring my bp down and right now something is telling me that’s the answer to my problems.
Hi, Justin
I’m uphappy with my at this point of my life. I had to quite my job in January because of medical and health issues. In that month, this year, I had kidney surgery when I woke up, the first thing on my mind was, where am I going to work that wont effect with my back back problem? Since I recoverd in mid Feburary, I haven’t found anything. It feels like im alone here and falling into depression. I have a gift from God that I love to do and that is painting and drawing. Sometimes, I just sit in a dark room in my house because im so depressed my mother is not helping the situation. She says she loves me and pray but she’s yelling at me like I’m not trying to do something. I’m over pushing myself to find work. I think im going to loose it and fall apart if some mircrle dosen’t happend soon like taking pills. I never took pills or drank before but its leading to that. Any thoughts?
hi, justin
I have a problem i want die reason are my thoughts they are killing me.
from my childhood i have a problem that when i see people happy i will feel happy and if i heard but any sad incident about people in their life i feel so bad about them wanted to do something but cant tell to any one around me.
Some thought are killing me inside , hate to think about them but these thoughts always come in to my mind
please tell me how to come out of them please dont tell me that pray to god i believe in god but cant pray for these reasons
m going through the worst phase of my life yet. i have been a loser all my life. i suck academically and i suck when it comes to sports or almost anything at all. i suck when it comes to sex and i suck when it comes to girls. i am a nobody. its like if i die not a soul on earth would care. i feel alone and sad. and over time i hav gotten so used to this pain that it is tuff living without it. suicidal thoughts come everyday but i cant leave my mom and dad as they have put in too much money on me for my career. but m broke. so bad that i hav lost hope. i just need someone who wud hug me and tell me m the most important person in their life. but no one wud. cause i dont matter. and y wud i i hav never achieved anything.
Justin, reading your story was inspiring and I’m glad everything seemed to work out for you and that you found God. However telling me that you’ve prayed for me or to turn to God for help won’t really help me, and I can’t have you say that to me because I’ve seen that this world is extremely cruel and don’t understand how God can exist if he lets so many people suffer. I’m sorry to say that because I understand you are a Christian and I respect your views but I just don’t think I can ever believe in God. I wish I could find God and find someone to pray to but I am currently at the end of my rope too and I just dont want to go on living anymore and I literally have no idea what to do.
hi,
this is aditya,i cmpleted my engineering,after engineerng i lost my hope on everything,bcz of that,i lost my happiness,crying al times,i dnt knw wat iam dng,and i dnt want to live this life..and i want to die
whenever i want to begin anything,i felt pressure,fear,so that i lost my oppurtunities,so,iam feeling very bad abt me,bcz of my fear ,i am trobling parents ..wenever i liked something,definetley it is lost in few days..so,i decided not to live vith dis wrld
this is aditya,after cmpleted my enginerring ,i lost my happiness,always crying ,badluck turns around me,feeling lonely always,failure in each and every aspect.if i like anything,in few days it has lost..i lost hope on everything.so,i dnt wanna lead this life..plz give me a sugggestion.
I’m really lost right now and I have no more fight in me. I haven’t worked in over 2years no income coming in single mother of 2. Have been hurt, used and unappreciated by friends,family and relationships. Right now I just want to die because all hope is gone. I’ve prayed to be sent in the right direction and I keep coming upon roadblocks. I’ve tried killing myself numerous times but to no prevail I’m still here. I feel like I no longer have a place in this world or any goals because I’m so far gone emotionally. As i’m writing this i’m just thinking of a way to just run my car into the river because i’m tired of living like this. I walk around like nothings wrong but inside i’m dying. And it’s getting worst everyday.
hey justin
i have try many ways to die but nothing happened at least 10 times tell me wht to do …………. i m in very pathetic condition
Iam tired with my life. No strength at all. lonliness,darkness, helplessness are only my companions. God never answered me,No patients and energy at all to beg him at all. please help me to leave this world.
NOONE CARES ABOUT ME!!! WHAT DO I DO???
(I AM 15)
Hi Justin,
Currently i’m a teenager and i’m doing really bad. At the age of 12 I learned to steal money from my parents by my friend. First it was few 5 dollar and so on but it came to 100 dollar at once. When i’m stealing it I feel really sad but i can’t stop. I got caught for that and I stopped. After a few months I started stealing again. I got caught stealing 20 dollars and my parents are really upset. I can’t beleive myself.WHy am I doing this. WHy must I be living like this. I wish you can give me some advice
God hates me and my family. He favors only he ones the loves. I am a very very kinds person who lovs everyon. God loves and favors only who he wants. I am not his favorite.. Hate life just waiing for the d day. LIFE SUCKs!!!!
i am alone no one is there in my life. i had lot of friends and relation but no 1 was correct for me i need one good friend to express my love. anybody is there means plz call to this no 9738022143
I m in my early 20’s living wit my mom n step dad.. I was in luv wit a guy from past few years, thought he was my future, but he has left me recently for a mistake i did.. I luv him so much, n i cant think of any1 else in his place.I ve confessed my mistake to God, i m prayin daily but m losin hope as days r passing on.. Feelin very lonely wanna kill myself.. My prayers r not bein answered.. Wat do i do now?
Hey,
I will be praying for you as I know it’s not easy to go through a breakup. From my perspective it seems like you should wait before you consider bringing somebody else into your life. Once you are happy being alone, just you and God, then ask Him for the right person. You can’t twists God’s arm to give you a specific husband, but you can pray for God’s will, and it will come to pass!
“If you abide in me, and my words abide in you, you shall ask what you will, and it shall be done to you.” John 15:7
God wants the best for your life, even when you can’t see it. Continue praying and reading His word as the truth will set you free, and give you comfort that can’t be attained in this world. God bless you!
If GOD was there (Though I believe in her, scared I guess) , why do bad people always win and never get hurt, why is there poverty, disease and hunger. Why do some people get everything and some dont
im 13 and im a drunk,smoker,poledancer im off to a bad start i gess.the only thing that keeps me a live is my dad i have to stay strong for him his a drunk and his on drugs he whent to get help last time and they said he waz the werst they ever seen on that drug no one carires about me and im wontin to jump off a cliff.
WHAT SHOULD I DO??????
Hi Justin,
Honestly i feel silly actually replying to this article but I am so fragile right now, i need to hear something to make me think twice.
Long story short, I am 27 and i have nothing but a 2yr old daughter out of wedlock to show for it. Where I live, everyone knows everyone, so as my peers are graduating or have graduated with their Bachelors and Masters, i am broke, on welfare, struggling to get a job and fighting to get back in school all because of a man I threw my life away for. I am abandoned among my peers and family and everyday, i feel more resentment and hatred for myself and others. My daughter deserves the best and i cant give it to her.
I just want to de so bad. I know life is better lived when u do have options but I really don’t. I have no help from anyone—–
i been sufferinf depression, been suicide for 4times…….i losing hope i feel useless! idk what to do! nobody can help me even family! jst feel like wanna die!
pls…..tell me how to die without pian i want to die…..i con’t live……….
Hello Brother ,
Its very nice to hear about your incident …but i think i must die …because this world is an unfair place…Why can Jesus not bring all the fairness here…Why is it so .. i hope u can help satisfy my queries
Thanks in Advance
i am messed up in my love life .. i don’t no what to do .after 6 years of relationship she is kind of very different these days in her behavior and the way she talks to me.and i am not able to find out what its.at times she hurts me so badly that i fell like killing myself but scared to do so ..pls suggest me how i can go about it….
hey’
god really did help you out alot ummmmm…well i have had suicidal thoughts i never went though with it because one of my good friends just died.:( she hung her self i can here to unstand what she went though.but i DONT wanta kill my self because my family will all be hurt and detroyed if i left and they will blame them selfs and i dont wnt that.i understand my lifes to vaulble too.and not only my real family but my spiral family as well.But im really am not scared to die.Is that strange?sometime i just feel like if i didnt come home one night they wouldnt know.im so queit because i sit back as if i wasnt there i kno they know im here but are u really that sure.i feel so unnoticed in this house.someteen would love dat.but i dont
kija
oh it’s me agin kija please dont get annoyed with me but if i die i dont kno where ill go i havnt been goin to church for te lat year and my gandfather say he dont gie a damn if my soul not his andthats what scares me the most i dont know if i love him or i love what he did for me and the last time i pick up my bible and read it was a sunday ago thats crazy i remember i used to be in the choir and everything but ive cryed to god so many times i dont know if he’ll believe me i think a near deaf experice will do me some good maybe jump in front of a car some shit dat will leave me in the hopsital for a while but maybe my parents will finaly notice me.all thry care bout is money and each other ther own engeries i dont kno but im leavin this summer sometime i dont talk to my parents for days it dont seem like they notice one time me and my brother left for a night they didnt even notice until 1:00 in the after non THAT SOME SHIT RIGHT?i dont know..
again, kija
…. i did something bad. i cant talk to my moms side of the family anymore… my mother doesnt know.. my father does and it kills me. my boyfriend and i have been together for almost 3 years now… and we have been through EVERYTHING. he doesnt care about me anymore… when i cry right in front of him… he couldnt care less… he doesnt try to comfort me… never…. my mom…. i feel like she takes her anger out on me… she actually just hurt me yesterday all because of my little sister… i didnt even do anything… i just dont know what to do…. i googled i want to die and this came up… so i thought id tell you how i feel…. i do feel like dying… like theres no one… no one who cares…. i just feel so empty… i am still in hs. a senior.. im fine when im there… i try not to be down… i still smile or whatever… but im just not me… i just feel like crap………………………………….. and i just want to move away… from everyone… and yes i def had suicidal thoughts….
dear justin,
can you plese describe why suicide is sin.thankyou.
i am so amazed at how God worked in your life. i just don’t know if He can do it for me also. i’m so tired of this life and sometimes i ask God to just take my life.
but thank you for sharing your story. i will pray tonight and hopefully He will hear me.
hi,
i want to die, i dont want this shit life anymore bez i am burden to my family, my age is 30 i am well educated but no job, I wont get job as per my education. may be in last birth i made sin things, i dont know.
my entire is sarrows, no fun. i dont want this life
please help me how to die..
i love my mum. if i die she can’t live ..
tell me suggesion..
hii…i wnt to die as whtever i do doesnt wrk fr any1…bs iw nt 2 diee fst…..plz helpp me plzzzz
23 years severe depression for no external reason, doctors say chemical imbalance in brain is the cause. tried more than 10 docs in these years with over 20 prescription medicines and even gone for ECT but no relief. Visited several sacred places in india
Now probelem getting very intensified every passing day, could’nt think, no desire to talk, no energy forgetful and arrogant could’nt meditate not even laughed for these many years. please god call me soon or cure me as i have no desire to live any more. please help me i really give up and will end this situation.
Please help me lord I have very little time to bear this situation further.
Ayush,
You know God heals people! I have never prayed to any other God than the one written about in the Holy Bible as He is the one who created everything. I don’t mean to make this about religion but if I knew the truth and didn’t say anything I would be guilty of your suffering cause I know WHO can help! In the past 2 months I’ve seen over 50 people healed! Ranging from cough and colds, to deaf ears and incurable diseases! Jesus can heal you as well like He did with me during my near death experience. I will be praying for your needs as I know God can meet them. God bless and be expecting God to touch you!
Cant abandon my parents nor my wife. My situation is very bad and am in a big big depression. Donno what to do. I feel like dying. Just written a short note on the same. I cant abandon my parents,wife and son. But the situation has made me so weak that I feel like dying. Please suggest me easy ways of commiting suicide.
Chandra,
You know good and well I won’t give you advice on how to kill yourself, nor did you post a comment expecting to get reply. I know your in need of hope and truly want to find peace in your life. I can relate to you as I’ve been through a lot myself. I’ve shattered my leg in a near death experience which took a very long time to recover from. God was there in the midst when I asked for help. I too pray that you will ask Jesus for help, cause He is alive and well! God bless!
hi justin
i am 18 years old and gradating highschool this june my life hasnt been the best but i have been trying to hold on to any hope i can but my mother died when i was very yong and not haveing her has been extremely tough i cry alot .i do belive in a god the reson i say a god is becuse i am jewish so i dont follow the bible .i have a learing disablty and becuase of that i get treted differntly by most pepole my dad thinks i cant do anything nothing that im dumb and stupid and incaple, thats what he says when he gose to school mettings and when push comes to shove he wins the battle becuase im to afraid to say anything his words and mey others have gotten to me they broke me into bits ands pices and made me so weak luky i have amzing frineds who are very soprtive and push me to try but i still am very negive alot and noone in my famly gets me and the puting down still is being done and i am very much proving them wrong becuase in for years ive gotten a summer job and an after school job voletered in a libry and apreschool found that ilove kids andi want tobecome a preschooltecher that is not nothing i dont have a 100 adverge but i work harder then most just to pass becuase of my disblety i dont wanna give up but i cant deall with all of the you cants i hear on a dayly bacis iam asking you to pray for me and if you have any advise anthing that could insprer me to push past everything that ive been thogh
Emily,
I’m so touched by your story. You are truly seeking for answers and you’ll find them. You do realize the God that you serve is the same one that I serve? The Old Testament is the same as your Bible, but us Christians have the New Testament and believe Jesus was that Messiah that was prophesied in the Old Testament. I do believe God can completely heal you of your disability. I’ve seen over 50+ people healed in the last 2 months just because of faith + prayer. Pray to Jesus as He is the one who died on the cross for your sin, and to make a way for us to reconnect with God as He is the perfect sinless lamb of God. I’m going to pray that God will completely destroy that disability in your life, I believe He can do all things. Just recently saw a deaf person completely healed, so God really can do anything. God bless you Emily!
I got less marks in my exam . My parents criticise me for getting less marks. I feel like dieing . I feel humiliated when i hear from people that i have scored less marks in my exam. I want to die as soon as possible . I also feel humiliated when i see other people scoring better than me. Please help me.
Sourdh,
Your looking at the wrong thing. Why does it matter what somebody else thinks? They won’t bring you joy or peace, only you can bring yourself that. Do what makes you happy. If you think the way you’ve always thought, you’ll continue to get what you’ve always got. Think about that long and hard. Its time to change the way you think Sourdh. Praying that you seek after Jesus as you will find the truth, that there is hope. You will also find peace and joy. God bless!
Hi, justin
today my boards results are out.i did’nt meet the expectations of my parents….they are sad ,i know it is my fault ..i am addicted to pornographic stuff,thinking stuffs which are irrelivent and abuse my parents for no reasons,lost in my own dreamland…i did’nt paid ay importance to this exam,felling lost and lonely..people who knows me as a bright fellow has scored way above me…i am suffering from anxiety and sleepless nights.thinking only if i had worked harder….please help
Kathrine,
I’m sorry your sucked in this self pity, but glad you at least can see your in need of help. That is the beginning to becoming set free, because your searching for answers. The Holy Bible says if you seek, you shall find, referring to finding the truth. I’m going to pray that Jesus will speak to you like He did me. God bless Kathrine!
i hav no hope in my life..frustated with my surrounding things happening..i am in need of job..to see my parents happy..i tried ..but my fate or luck are not coperating with me..please suggest me a way..
Vaishnavi,
There is always hope. You came here looking for hope right? And you found it because I have also found it and I’m sharing it with you. I have many stories about how Jesus came and saved me. Maybe you can start there with the Holy Bible as Jesus is alive and will. He’s here to give us hope, peace, and joy. Praying for you!
hi
could you please me the how can i die because i am very depressed of my life. i am very poor how can i happy with my mother & father they are very frustrated if my parents is not happy so i have not rights ti live in this world. how can i die.
Sushil,
I know its not fun when you feel depressed, but don’t lose hope as there is always hope to find peace and joy. I hope you found my story encouraging as I have also been through a lot of trials myself. It took me a long time to realize that there is a living God who does care, and does miracles. I pray that you will have a desire to seek for the truth, as if you do you will find it. Read the Holy Bible, its worth a shot right?
tell me hw 2 get out f dis world as fast as possible…jst take me out somewer
Ash,
Your not trying to kill yourself, but your instead looking for peace and joy, but haven’t found it yet. I know its not always easy but there is hope. I’ve seen God do many incredible miracles in my life and He’s willing to do it in your life as well. Have you tried praying to Jesus, like I have?
im sinthu,from srilanka,im a receptionist at galadari hotel colombo,i met a boy name pathum,i love pathum but my parents dislike pathum,i dont know what to do,i want pathum,i like to marry,otherwise i will die,please help me?
Sinthu,
I wish I had all the answers but I don’t. Your family against marriage or only the boy? I do know family is important and maybe they have a reason for not liking him. Have you asked them why? I’ll be praying for you Sinthu!
just last year, i just been or put my self into a paranoid state being delusioning a girl pretending to be my girlfriend.. Wc i never yet met personally. Feeling jealousy and low self-esteem dropped?(i think). The new year cames 2012, goint back 2 skul. She called via celphone while im attending in class but its not successful cause she just decided 2 put down her call. After my class, i txt her 2 call up, but nothing works. I thought dat she get angry or feeling sad. So i consult a frend(gay). 2ld me dat i better call her. Nothing wrong if i call he said, so i call da girl, feeling dat im da one again calling her up. Bcoz i let my frend call her but she put down.. Then i lie dat im not da one called her up but rather didnt tell i know da one who called her up. Days past until my graduation, i feel everyone putting me down. Being fake person! Well its either even b4. . .everyone just like hating, thinking or people just avoiding me just like sumthings wrong with me.. Insecure, resenting, bitter, hostile, aggressive, mad, mentally ill, childish, immature, FAKE. I can admit, why not? If im fake ok, (but being as still fake answer). Im being depressed, putting my midterm grades 2 down. . .from a high grades in prelim.. As days pasts, i feel dat way, hardly coping up with people hating me. Being mad, insane, but im hardly and feeling aggressive as people seems dat i love and LQ 2 da world. Now, since da last reply i told 2 da girl was wat was da prob? She didnt answer until 1 month no commu anymore. She becamamed turned off.. So i feel im bad, the world it dislikes me, feeling dat, everyone seeing me stressed, mad, stupid, fool.. Honestly someone 2ld me im obssess with dat girl. Dat person sum just judgemental, critiziser 2 me. Shes a girl, younger dan me. We didnt yet met, coz she dont like even im convincing her. Im plastik but i cant admit 2 myself. I hate critizisers, im childish. All of this is wat im suiciding sensation is, my dad my aunt just like im insecure or my complaints are. Im plastik, insecure, ugly, bitter ok fyn. No one lyks me. Im down. Im pity 2 my self. Im wild, childish, why did i just born anyway. Im really fake. So wat. I dont want to have job ryt now. Im putting myself into a reflector to those smalling me. Im gay, so wat. But really not, im just weak super. Fake isnt? Ryt.Just now, im freezed. Cant have unstable life. Im suicidal really but i cant. So im just smoking and smoking. Im not worth.En worse like been cursing becoz of vengeance, seeing like dat.
Hey,
If we think the way we’ve always thought, then you’ll continue to get what you’ve always got. Think about it real hard, because its time that you change the way you think. Your so concerned about what others think about you that you haven’t taken the time to think about who you want to be in life. What goals are you going to set to get there? Study hard? Work hard? Learn new hobbies? Get outside and enjoy the world? I’m going to pray that you seek after the truth, cause you’ll find it if you honestly do. That’s what it says in the Holy Bible. Maybe you should read it sometime? Its a great book bro.
i dont believe in anything to be thoughts in dis life anymore. Planning 2 leave our house and go elsewhere. Just like being psychotic. Thats my problem, psychotic. Bipolar disorder is my recent mood disorder. I hate my life honestly. I dont believe in god. If i die? Hell is my destination
You say you don’t believe in God, but say your going to hell if you die. You know where they get the definination of hell at right? Yes, in the Holy Bible. Maybe you should ask God to give you peace and joy. Ask Him for the truth cause you need help in this life. He cares and knows whats going on in yours. Each of my stories I talk about a personal God who does care and does do miracles! Praying for you!
32 years .. tried to live n love ..
Tried to be selfless in everyway possible
Fought my way through education , work and life…
Everytime I fall, I try to rise but some one pulls me down ..
Love has been my biggest defeat in life
Never could figure out where do I go wrong ?
Everytime I see a light , i m jusr pushed deep in to a tunnel of darkness , one that has no end ..
All I ever recieve is fake ness, lies and physical , verbal and emotional abuse
I am tired….
I dont want to live !!
I really wanna sleep in peace.. rest in peace …
I need to be away from everythin thing thats mortal ..
Vicky,
I’m sorry you’ve went through so much pain. I know its not easy. I’ve also went through some very tough times, but in the end God held me up. The Holy Bible was written for us to read and I pray that you will seek for the truth, as you’ll find it if you do. There is a living God who cares about you Vicky. Praying for you that you can make it through this and find peace and joy in this life. Your still very young and have a lot to live for!
Hey Justin
My name is cassie I am 17 years old. Last year the worst possiable thing happened to me and I was raped, it destroyed me! I hate my life I can’t trust anyone and just want to give up. Any advise
Cassie,
Don’t give up. I have a close friend that this happened to as well. It was hard but she made it through by being open about it, and forgiving the one who did it. Life does continue, we just need to learn from our mistakes and be more careful not to put ourselves in a position where this could happen again. Praying for you Cassie!
Believe in God you are pure and sacred to Him who made you, know one can take you away from the Father, you are one of his children and He can be your refuge and strength call out to Him and pray for your perpetrator who did this to you that he will see the error of his ways and find away back to God and ask for forgiveness. Keep your heart and mind in Gods sacred places that no one can take away from.
I pray for your body, your mind, and your soul that they will be healed in Jesus Name and you will be restored and lead a life of sunshine and happiness and no longer be scarred or feel destroyed but restored. Amen
Maureen,
Thank you so much for being an encouragement to others. You are blessed! Cassie, what she speaks is true. God bless the both of you!
Nobody likes me anymore, not even my parents 🙁
Arbaaz,
Your parents, are your parents. They will never leave you. If they do abandon you, like what happened to me, then just live life the best you can to please your future spouse. Don’t let the world get you down as they try hard to. I hope you found the story encouraging, as your not the only one in need of a miracle. Praying for you Arbaaz!
I am so depressed
Fernando,
I know life isn’t always easy, nor is it fair. Just know that many people do care for you and are praying for you. I hope you find the other stories encouraging as I too have been through a lot of pain in my life, thus I can relate to you.
Hey Justin
You’re story is amazing and gives me so much hope. I really respect what you are trying to do, it is refreshing to see someone who has strong convictions and lots of love. Keep rocking BRO!
Your main man
Randy Tallahacy
Hey Randy,
Thank you so much for the encouragement. I’m blessed to have people like you lifting me and praying for the ministry that God has me working in. God bless Randy! Hope you find the other stories even more encouraging as they get better 🙂
i want too die.. every1 is hating me 🙁
Jat,
I know life isn’t fair, but its not the end of the world. There is much to live for as you read on this page. Also, my story about how I had a motorcycle accident and recovered may really encourage you as well!
🙁 i dun hav ma love he used me bcz of money i love him aloot though he gave me soo pain but cnt live wdout him i always keep on cutting ma hand and just tdy i ate 7 panadol tblts ther’s a blade still in ma pckt i dun knw y it only hppns to me i prayed to Allah but i cnt find a way what to do??? nd i kept on breaking ma mom’s heart by doing selfish things :”( life is gng worst i cnt study prply i wnt ma love bck! wot to do??? nobdy care fr me noone if i tld sm1 ma story thn othr prsn replies tht she is such a drama queen n awl…..
Liza,
I care and don’t want you to hurt yourself. You know our Bible’s a different right? Its not by chance you made it hear and read about Jesus who heals. I will pray that you find the joy in life that your looking for as God said if you seek Him you will find Him. Draw close to God and God will draw close to you – james 4:8
I don’t think GOD really exists. Being in a broken family like you, I too have seen a lot of ups and downs. I am a true follower of GOD and do visit chruch regularly, but what I get in return? Pain and more pain in life. I am thinking of becoming an atheist and if the pain in my life grows further I don’t wish to live such life. I HATE YOU GOD! You never helped me.
Andrew,
God knows whats in your heart, and He wants you to truly be set free from the lies. Forgiveness is the key that I leave you with. You already know God exists weather you say He does or doesn’t. You wouldn’t be replying “i hate you god” if not. Jesus does care, but he wants you to seek Him for the solution and to truly repent (turn from sins).
pls give some suggest to live or die i have family two kids so iwant to take my children with me
Mohan,
I’ll give you two reasons not to… your two kids. More so than that, is that life is precious. It truly is a gift that needs to be treasured, just like your children. I know life isn’t fair and sometimes things happen that really hurt. But God does care. There is much to live for Mohan, praying that you will also seek Jesus.
I want just to know some forms to die,I want to die and that’s my choice. Só,I want some forms of go to death,because I want to die. Somebody will say :- you will burn in hell!
But I live in hell,my life is like hell. Where’s God? I believe in God,but I just can’t continue like that. I don’t have any reason to live no more and the only thing will save me is death . Alright,I’m talking serious,really and I’m still crying hard now,so can you help me to die?;
Victoria,
I’m sorry its so hard for you to live now. I know its not easy sometimes as life isn’t fair. Killing yourself won’t solve it, and yes I’m glad you believe in God. If God is real, and the Bible is real then our prayers can be heard! Praise God, because He hears you! I know He can hear you, cause God heard me; a drug dealer. Ask Jesus to forgive you and ask for help, then He will give it. Its simple but we make it hard. God is very much alive!
Hi Justin
I have lot of disturbances in my life ., I Dn’t wana stay alive..! From my childhood my mom n dad started quarreling now my age is 17 Even Nw they r following the same way ., I just fed up with dem..! Nw they both seperated but putting cases on each other ., mom earns no money ..! She is a housewife, we came with our mom., due to lack of money we are treated very bad by her relatives..! Dad works in Qatar earns good salary ., he have problem with my mom not with us..! He used to treat us good..! Nw I confuse to stay with whom.! If I go with dad she commits Sucide..! What shall I do..! Feeling hell staying with these people..! Please give me a suggestion ..!
Divya,
I don’t have the solutions but I know who does. Have you tried praying? You read my story about how Jesus saved my messed up life. He can do the same for yours. In the past couple weeks I’ve seen Him heal many people instantly and all other sorts of miracles! He is alive and well! Praying for you!
i want to die, i was raped a few months ago, i am only 17 years old! i hate myself. its all my fault, does God even care, i dare not tell anyone! :'(
Hey Cassie,
I know that’s not easy to deal with. I’ve had a very close friend go through the same thing. You should find somebody you can speak to about this as it will make it easier to over come. Also, God does care, He cares a lot! You read my story of how God changed my life. He can do the same to yours! Praying for you Cassie!
tell me is victoria alive? if not then there is no point in my existance……
Your point in existence is not about other people, but about what God created you to be. If you look to man, you will be discouraged, but if you look to God; He will encourage.
Hi justin,
This is Sanjay. i am terribly fed up with my life .I am 18 yrs old now. A very terrible thing happened to my life at the age of 16. i could not achieve my goal. I had to give up my ambition. i am not interested with this.. in this young age ,I’m too much depressed. i am not as normal as a youth. I am being insulted everywhere i stay. i hate this. i could not tolerate. I don’t need this. My path went Wrong. I’m willing to Quit.
Any Advice..?????
Sanjay,
My advice is don’t quit as that is what the devil wants you to do. Pray instead to Jesus for help. I hope you find my other stories just as encouraging Sanjay, as its really about how God is a personal God and does care. He does do miracles, He will save you, because He loves you!
i done with evrythn lost my self respect , trust , frnds, parental care, sistrs affection , family’s supprt, i hav been pruvd a liar ..wen im not ppl gossip when im nt rong,an im 16!!! i quit
Chingi,
Life has just begun! We live and learn! Chingi, there is always hope and always a time for learning! It’s okay that you were wrong, but now is a time to learn from your mistakes and not do it again. That way when you get married one day, you will be honest with your spouse and they with you. God can take your sorrows and turn them into dancing! That is what the Word of God says! Look at my life and my many stories of how God did that to me! He took a drug dealer and rescued him! Amazing! Jesus loves you and died for you, so that you can come back to God and know Him in a personal way! I’m praying for you Chingi as life has just begun and you have a purpose!
I need help..parents fight all the time sovi told my boyfriend about them fighting and he broke up with me he said he didnt want me to be like them..I don’t see the reason in breathing anymore I want to die I need ideas on how to kill myself painlessly I know its considered me giving up but I have to give up..I just want to die..please..help
Anna,
Your parents for one won’t determine your future. Only you can do that as you have a purpose in life. If I, a drug dealer have a purpose in life, then so do you, as this is what the Word of God says. You do not have to live in sorrow as God can give you peace and joy. This is what we’re all truly after right? Even you think you’ll have it if you kill yourself but your wrong. Where will you go when you die? Heaven or hell? It’s important you ask yourself this as eternity is a long time! Jesus changed my life and can do the same for yours! Also, your boyfriend leaving is a blessing. It’s better you found out now rather than later, that he can’t go through trials. You need a real man who can stand by you, not one who flees. That is what courtship is about, finding who is worthy to marry. You were successful in your courtship as now you know he is not the one! Be wiser and pray to God for the right one, and He will tell you who it is. I’m praying for you Anna, God bless!
my girl friend cheated me 4 times… my life has completely changed, i dnt have any peace. i am muslim i pray 5 times a day…strange things are happening with me..since the day we broke up.i am not able to recover my self, now i wish to die in a legal way…bt then i think about my parents and family members…
i dony know what i shud do.. any advice?
Hey Shazz,
I’m sorry what happened to you. I know its not easy and can relate as I’ve had the same thing happen to me once upon a time. It’s better you found out that she can’t be trusted now, rather than wait til after you get married. I know it’s not a mistake that you landed on my website, it’s not by chance. Whether your muslim or not, God loves you. I know its frowned upon to read from my Holy Bible, but I’ve read from yours. Maybe you should read some of the teachings of Jesus as they will speak life into you, this I can promise. I won’t force you to do anything as God has given us free will to choose to love Him. If that is truly the case, then why do you think you are forced not to read from other books to increase your knowledge? My prayer goes out to you as you are not alone. God is a personal God who can truly do miracles in your life. God bless!
i want to die…i hate my life…my life sucks in terms of evrything..my family is broken…my grades are failing…most of all my girlfriend is leaving me..she is my life..i love her so much…cant loose her .
Aagleko,
Life hurts sometimes, but what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger, and wiser. My family is also broken, but that doesn’t determine who I will become. I’m praying that you will see the identity of who you are in Christ, that He loves you and you are His child. If your a child of the most high God then don’t you think He’ll take care of you? Yes! You see your already being protected as your ex is leaving doing you a favor. That is what courting is all about, finding out if the person is right to marry or not. Your courtship was not in vein as it was a great success! You found out she is not the one and it has made you wiser. You need somebody you can’t live without and they can’t live without you! Anything else isn’t true love! Even when they are ugly in the old age, you’ll still love them. Have you tried praying to God for help and peace. Jesus watch over my brother and guide him through his life, thank you Jesus in your name I pray, Amen!
Hey Justin
I m 20 years old,, i want to suicide,, nobody understand me. i m alone. my friend, my familiar and all not understand me they hate me because i m in love. Me and my girlfriend want to marriage but our family not accept this..
My girlfriend tried to suicide few days ago and i have to..
Vipul,
You are still very young, do not jump into marriage unless you are truly ready. Do you make enough to support her? Can you live without her? Will you love her when she’s ugly? Are you mentally strong enough to support her weak emotions as she is a weaker than men emotionally?
Your life has just begun, you have so much to live for. God has a purpose for you and you can see that in the way Jesus has changed this drug dealers life. If God would protect me, how much more you? If God loves me, how much more you? Give your family time, prove to them that its true love, as true love waits correct? I’m praying for you Vipul!
Thanks justin,,,
i have spent some time with my friends and my family and everything all-rights now,, my family and my girlfriend family agree for our marriage…
Thank u so much
Vipul,
Glory to God! That is very encouraging to hear that your family is supporting your marriage. It’s very important that they are behind you as marriage is no simple thing. God bless you and continue to keep your eyes on the one who gives the blessings =D
i´m gonna do soicide, but i dont know how to do it.. plz help!
Ralf,
Suicide isn’t the way, instead Jesus says “I am the way the truth and the life, no one can come to the Father but through Me”. Seek after truth and life, then you will find the purpose of why you are here on earth. You do have a purpose, the is a reason why you still live. Don’t give up as life has just begun for you!
Praying for you!
I thought this was to teach me how to die, I’m not looking for rescuing, just the end before I turn 17.
Rose,
If I were to drink a glass of poison, but didn’t know it was deadly, though you and everybody else did. Wouldn’t that make everybody else guilty of my death? It’s the same way. I know the truth of how to find peace and joy, because ultimately that is what you are looking for and trying to attain it by other means. I’m here to rescue you from the lies that you’ve been believing. God has a purpose for you! Life is full of peace and joy through Jesus! Even through the motorcycle accident that I went through, God was still there to do many miracles in my life, and show His love for me. I’m praying for you Rose!
Temptations live all around in the world. How do we combat these temptations and live with God when it is so hard!
Cody,
That is a great question! I actually wrote about fighting temptations as it’s something I’m still very much learning! Though, I will tell you that God understands and He loves you just as you are! I know that’s hard to believe, but it’s so true. God bless you Cody!
Thanks man! I read the article and I really understood it! I believe that if I try REALLY hard, i can fight my temptations and go with God. God bless you man, and thank you so much for just being a good person!!! Oh, and i was a little shaky at first, but my name’s actually Todd, and you changed a life bro
Todd,
I’m so glad you were able to get a lot from my story. Continue fixing your eyes on God as He with holds nothing from those who are upright =D I’m nothing the one who changed your life, but it is God who used me to help many people. Nobody can force you to change as you have free will to choose whether or not YOU will change! God bless you more Todd, aka Cody =D
I just celebrated my birthday… and my ultimate wish is to Die…. Rest in Peace…
Clark,
Don’t take that step as there is so much beauty in this world that you’ll never see! I promise you that life is so beautiful once the storm has passed! It’s really about being able to look at the good things around us, to give us hope. I’m praying for you Clark!
i did so much for this man..loved him to bits n he doubts on my loyalty since beginning…cant leave him..cant stay with him..can’t live like this too….i feel like dying…running away from this life
Mehreen,
I’m sorry that your having a hard time, I can understand about tough relationships. You know there is more to life than just relationships, there is peace and joy that comes from God alone that can fill that empty void in your life! Fix your eyes on God and He can restore your joy, as “no good thing does he withhold from those whose walk is blameless.” Psalms 84:11
Jesus had to die on the cross to give us the Holy Spirit that would comfort us and guide us into all truth. This Holy Spirit is also our Comforter, that can give you peace and joy if you seek after Him.
“If you love me you will obey what I command. And I will ask the Father and He will give you another Comforter to be with you forever – the Spirit of Truth. The world cannot accept him because it neither sees him nor knows him. But you know him for he lives with you and will be in you.” John 14:15-17
I’m praying for you Mehreen! God bless!
i know there is a lot more than relationships….n I try to head towards those things….i go to my job..i watch tv..use internet…n try to indulge in every day routine very actively….but he can’t bear my independence or the fact that i can earn and live a life of my own…sometimes…he calls me professional,,,sometimes double standard….sometimes,,,,independent….he always has a TAG ready fro me which pisses me….u know…i wanna live and enjoy my life to the maximum n use my intelligences n knowledge to take maximum benefit of my time n my life…BUT HE WANTS TO CONTROL ME…his love wants me to stay captive….whihc is killing me n sending me in depression…i m going mad..
Mehreen,
I’m praying for you as that is a tough situation. God can really help you through this though as He is the only person that can really change somebody’s heart. Not us, not you, not your boyfriend. Trying to change people only makes them grow further apart. Instead the ideal relationship is trying to help the other person grow while only focusing on ourselves that we can be a better person for our future spouse. You also have to understand that your not married yet, thus you can’t own each other till then. I’m really praying for as that is the best thing I can do. My advice is just that, advice. The real change will come through prayer to Jesus. God bless you Mehreen!
Hi, just thought you could keep me on your prayers. Life just sucks. I hope it will get better. If God still want something for me to do, then I want to do it. If this is how I will live my everyday, I might as well go now because I can’t live like this my entire life. It just sucks.
Lorraine,
You know how the saying goes, “The rainbow always comes after the storm”. Continue fixing your eyes on the vision that God has given you. If you need Him to refresh that vision then JUST ASK! God really does hear us and answer!
“Fix your eyes on now what is seen but what is unseen, for what is seen is temporary but what is unseen is eternal” 2Cor 4:18
“Where there is no vision, the people perish: but he that keeps the law, happy is he.” Pro 29:18
Lorraine you should also read the story of how I became a missionary. It relates to you more. I was working 2 jobs and a business….Read more>>
I’m sick of life. Nobody understands me, and im yet 13. Everyone hates me.. my parents hit me and my siblings look at me with disgust. The only person who understood me died fighting cancer. My beloved grandfather.
But I’m not gonna suacide, its not a solution and I’ve been inspired by your story 🙂 Thank you.
Hey,
I understand as I’ve been in many situations where I was completely alone myself. Especially after my motorcycle accident. I was totally alone, learning how to walk again. Though, very few people ever came to visit me, and besides that I felt completely helpless. Read more>>
It doesn’t matter what religion you are, I’m here to tell you religion is garbage! It’s just an act of trying to appear holy. Well, God doesn’t want that BUT wants you to know Him PERSONALLY! Forget about Muslim, forget about Christianity and look for God’s heart! I promise He is alive and well! Praying for you!
hi…..m puneet 25 year old research scholar i have gf in past but my family is not accepting her…finally he got someone. i love her so much without her i dont want to live but living for my family because i have lot of responsibility without her i dont think anything…but she and my family cant understand me…i want to commit suicide but i cant do it…my life is totally finished what can i do live or commit suicide
Hi Puneet,
Committing suicide won’t solve anything. Have you tried praying to Jesus? God really does care and can totally change your life around. Your family, friends and girlfriend would miss you so much if you were gone! I’m here to tell you that life is good, even when it seems tough. Our way of thinking has to change because that is the cause of our depression. If you think like you’ve always thought, you’ll continue to get what you’ve always got. Read about how I changed my way of thinking.
Praying for you Puneet, as through prayer can come real change!
I’m sorry if this is a little long and boring but my life is falling apart and I don’t know what to do. I Googled “I want to die” and found your post.
I am 26 years old. After high school I attended a small liberal arts college for 5 years, first majoring in biology, and then nursing. Long story short I became heavily involved in drugs, dropped/failed out of school, and ended up at the end of my rope addicted to crystal meth (among other things).
My parents finally intervened almost two years ago, drove to another state to pick me up, brought me home, let me detox, and helped me get back on my feet. I became a Nurses Aide at a nursing home and got back into nursing school. I also started using various substances again, but not nearly to the extent I had before.
I just graduated and was in my first week as a nurse when I overdid it and blacked out and got into an accident. I was arrested and now will be charged with DUI. I also lost my job and may very well lose my nursing license. I am close to $80,000 in debt for all of my post-high school education and have no job, will probably lose my license for nursing, and no prospects. There seems to be no hope. I need help.
I’m afraid I might hurt myself. Thank you for letting me share my story.
Hey,
You and I relate in so many ways. Both of us have been addicted to drugs, then ended up in accidents which effect our future. I’m here to tell you there is always hope! If you are breathing, then there is hope! God has a plan for your life, even if you think you’ve messed it all up! Pray to Jesus to help you with your nursing license. God can do anything and I’ve seen hundreds of miracles! This is tiny in the eyes of God, but He is only moved by your faith. God is always quick to forgive, the moment you ask, He already did it! Read my story on how I had a near death experience that lead to debt bigger than yours with very little hope of being able to ever walk upstairs again! Praying for you!
I am planing to die today late evening by the way of making accident with heavy vehicles. This way I choose for make an end for my life.. My dear friends, this is for your kind information, If any one look in to this post from my family may know about I knew my death before that itself..
Awaiting to see the wonderful god…
Oh god.. Bye friends…
Sarava,
The will of God is not for you to kill yourself! There is still hope! There is a beautiful life here waiting for you, even when you can’t see it. I’ve had many hard experiences as well, but taking the easy way out won’t fix anything. Eternity in the lake of burning fire does not sound like an easy way. Ask Jesus to forgive you of anything you’ve done wrong, and put Him as Lord of your life AND HE WILL GIVE YOU PEACE! Peace that can’t come from this world as it’s not based on circumstances. Joy that overwhelms you, will fill your cup. I promise this with my life, as it is a promise of God. I’ve seen many miracles and God can change yours! I’ve had many near death experiences and have come out of each alive! God has healed hundreds of people before my very own eyes! Give it to God, as He loves you!
God I pray that you speak to Sarava and remind them how much their family and friends love them, in Jesus name, Amen!
Your story is amazing! I wish I had a one time wish like that….:(
Michal,
The story that is more amazing is how Jesus gave His life for us. My story is minor compared to the great prophets and evangelists. You see Michal, we can’t compare ourselves with others as it will only cause us to become jealous or get filled with pride, as the Bible says. If you see yourself better than somebody else you get prideful, if you see somebody better than you, then you get jealous.
This closeness that I have with God can be attained by anybody! I believe that completely! Put yourself around people who can help you draw closer to God.
“He who walks with the wise grows wise, but a companion of fools suffers harm.” Proverbs 13:20
“Flee from satan and he’ll flee from you, draw close to God and He’ll draw close to you”James 4:7-8
God bless you more Michal! Praying for you!
what is there after death?? i am really curious to know dats why wanna die…..
Hey Huda,
It’s simple… God. After we die we either meet God and spent eternity with Him or we don’t and we spend eternity in the lake of burning fire apart from God. The Holy Bible is filled with amazing stories, but the best part is that it’s all true! Read one of the smaller books, Gospel of John here.
“But the cowardly, the unbelieving, the vile, the murderers, the sexually immoral, those who practice magic arts, the idolaters and all liars–their place will be in the fiery lake of burning sulfur.” Revelations 21:18
“Whoever believes in the Son has eternal life; whoever does not obey the Son shall not see life, but the wrath of God remains on him.” John 3:36
Check it out for yourself! Read the third chapter of John as that is the one that talks about eternal life!
hey justin how old are you? i hope you know what is true love? and how it feels like when you cant be with the person you love? you know i know dying is not the solution but then what to do to get over from this depression?
Hey Huda,
I really do understand your frustration as I’ve had a serious relationship end badly as well. To answer your question, I was born in 1986 and I understand true love because I felt it from many people and most especially from God.
“Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails.” 1Cor 13:1-13
I do not pretend to have all the answers, but I know that prayer works and that God is alive! If you think the way you’ve always thought, you’ll continue to get what you’ve always got. Read about how to change your way of thinking.
I’m praying for you Huda! God will comfort you as it’s His promise to send His Holy Spirit, just ask for it!
“And I will ask the Father, and he will give you another Helper, to be with you forever,the Spirit of truth. The world cannot accept him, because it neither sees him nor knows him. But you know him, for he lives with you and will be in you. I will not leave you as orphans; I will come to you.” John 14:16:18
sir i want to die.
i am not interested in living the life
Sameera,
Your still searching for peace and hope. I’m here to tell you that it can still be found! You’ve read my story on how God saved me when I wanted to die. Afterwards I was filled with peace and joy, and then I found purpose in my life. The miracles never stopped, God’s love never stopped with just drug dealers either. Instead He really does care for everyone. I am praying that you find God and true love!
justin
i cant even sleep in nights these nights are long as immorality i cant sleep i am taking
sleeping pills to rest myself, i want my love back i want him only…. and i do blv in god i ve never done anything rong in my life .. so why me and him we r apart now? i changed my religion aswel to marry him but i nly got dissapointment… i dint deserve this…. can god answer my qwestions that where i was rong?
Huda,
I’m sorry that it’s been so hard for you to sleep. It can be tough when we aren’t at peace inside. I’m going to be praying for you. As far as the relationship goes, that too I can’t advise in, but only pray for you. This has nothing to do with what you did right or wrong, as God is a covenant keeper not a punisher, but rather a forgiver when you ask for forgiveness. I remember my motorcycle accident that really had me asking the same questions as you. It nearly took my life and my leg, which had me unable to walk for 8 months. “Not by works of righteousness which we have done but according to His mercy we are saved” – Titus 3:5 Praying for you to get great sleep without sleeping pills, cause you really don’t need them. God is able!
What do you have for us who are aren’t superstitious about some preposterous notion of a science-contradicting superfriend?
Theolic,
My advice isn’t able to move mountains or lift burdons, but my prayers can because God has granted us authority. I’m not sure what science books your reading or what you believe, but He’s not science-contradicting. I’m going to write about evolution soon for you to help you understand more, the Truth will set you free! My prayers are with you Theolic, God bless!
im a screw up
Paris Banks,
We all mess up, nobody is perfect. I’m praying that you will see that I’ve been a bigger screw up, but yet God still loves us. He understands we messed up and if He didn’t then there is no reason for us to worry about their being a God.
“Here is a trustworthy saying that deserves full acceptance. Christ Jesus came into the world to save sinners of whom I am the worst. For this very reason I was shown mercy so that in me, the worst of sinners, Christ Jesus might display His unlimited patience as an example to all those who would believe in Him for eternal life.” 1 Timothy 1:15
Praying for you Banks!
Hi,
Can you pls pray for me, I have done my best to my wife. Still we are seperated. My Father in Law and Mother in Law are the devils, but my wife is not intelligent to think individually. I have my life now a days,I haven’t done any wrong things to anyone. I love the truth. But my wife always says lie. Whether talking truth is the problem. Normally Jesus used to say me answers, but in this scenario he is not saying anything. I am totally confused, but he knows whats good for me. Now I hate my life. If possible pls pray for me and get me some answers. May be I am not in state to understand what jesus is telling. I don’t know why jesus is not taking me with him, if he thinks i am not suitable to live in this world. If there is no reply from jesus.. then i assume that whatever i do will be done in the hands of jesus.. it may be right or wrong.. waiting..
Hey,
Of course I will be praying for you! Many have been heart broken but just continue to prove your best to God. You can’t give up now because you still have many years left, and if your still breathing than you have a purpose for God! If you can’t hear Jesus, than do what I do; go back to where you last heard Him and obey with what He told you to do. God can use the bad and make it good. You know this! Sometimes we have to be tested as well, maybe even your wife. Of course God is against divorce, but He won’t control anyone and neither should we. Years from now you will understand why this had to happen, praying for you brother!
hey pls am in deep trouble..nothing is going on well in my life…i love my guy a lot he is not in a state to understand.pls i feel lik killing myself pls pray god to take me wit him pls..pls his family members are yelling at me cause am the reason for them to be on stakes..no really i love him pls tell me how to die.am crying in my life evryday pls pls pls do something help me…am going mad pls speak to my guy and tell him things..pls he thinks very narrow..pls i beg u i an lost don know wat to do wat not to do…its better i die….am not even able to speak properly i wannna cry…do something
CS,
Two things that I’m certain of: 1) prayer aligns our will with God’s 2) Don’t make big decisions when your emotional. I will be praying for you, but do take the time to repent for anything you’ve done wrong, so God can forgive you and be your Foundation. I am really going to be praying for you as I do with everybody. God doesn’t want to harm you, but He wants you to know Him in a personal way. Take this time and separate yourself from the world to seek God’s face. God bless you CS!
Hey, My name is becca.. im going through some really scary things right now.. my thoughts are getting the best of me and life is just getting to be too much. I got diagnosed with a really bad disease and on top of all that, my past hurts are coming back to sting me just a little more. I don’t know what i need. prayers, a shoulder to cry on, or maybe even a hug. i just want the pain to go away.
Becca,
I’m praying for you and believing that God has you in His hands. Trust in Him and give Him all your burdens. Check out a prayer for healing where God touches many lives and heals them of all sorts of illnesses. Less than an hour ago, I received news that the guy our evangelism team prayed on Tuesday, just woke up from coma.
God bless you Becca, praying for you!
sir i got rid of this dirty life, my lover cheated me, but i love him more than my life, i am unable to do any work always his thoughts and memories will be running in mind sir, i just want to kill myself please please please please help me sir, i beg u please
Raziya,
I’m glad you got rid of your dirty life, but I’m sorry you had to find out your lover was no good for you. It’s better than you found out, rather than find out after you get married. You have a fresh start to living a life of purity without attracting STD’s from a cheating lover. I firmly believe in marriage before having sex, and pray that you’ll see the reasons behind it too. True love waits, and he my friend wasn’t the right one. If somebody can’t wait for you, or can’t truly live their life without you, then there is no reason to pursue marriage or a deeper relationship.
I know it’s hard and will continue to pray for you. God bless you more Raziya, and I hope you can find some hope in my trials as well.
Please stop preaching.
Let’s pretend that I were holding a glass of poison that I’m about to drink, but didn’t know it’s poison. Although, you knew it was going to kill me if I drink it. Not only did you know, but you were sitting right beside me. If I drink that and die, does that make you guilty of my death? Likewise, this is the reason why I preach.
There is a world that is dying and going to hell, and don’t know the truth that God loves them! God loves you and want’s you to have a personal relationship with Him. I’m not just blowing hot air, but I’ve seen many radical miracles happen in my own life. Not only in my own, but I’ve witnessed over 100+ people being healed instantly because God touched them! How can I be silent? Would you? Who would you rather obey… God or man?
Praying for you!
Hi Justin,
I Love a Person But that Person Doesnt Like Me Back..
My Parents Always Curse me and Hate Me..
Sometimes I Just want to DIE
Im like already half dead inside but i dont show it..:((
Sam,
You have so much to live for. I promise you, that your parents won’t determine your future. Only you an do that! Keep your head up Sam as life has just begun, and your building your foundation for the rest of your life. I’m not one to give any advice for your love life, but don’t bother dating unless your ready to get married. I’m praying for you Sam! I pray you will take the time to also ask God for help. God bless!
The LORD is near to the brokenhearted and saves the crushed in spirit. Psalm 34:18
My best friend and i are fighting over our friend that is backstabbing me and my best friend cant see it the way i see it and she accuses me that i am the one to blame for our arguments, i ignored her for a day to see if she is going to talk to me.. but she didnt, she is now hanging around with the girl that backstabs me, i dont even know why would she do that? i didnt do anything wrong and that best friend of mine is my only close friend…and it sucks when we are fightidng.. she even pushed me! no one ever pushed me in my entire life… im kinda a forever alone child… and the other problem is that my boyfriend wants to break up with me… because i just didnt reply to one of his chats… and he made it bigger… now we are fighting between people who are close to me and him… i dont want anymore fights.. im tired of it… help… and no one even talks to me about my problem… i tried praying but i still think about everything that happend… it sucks and i just wanna.. u know end the pain and stuff… pray for me?….
Luna,
I do understand how close family and friends are the ones who can hurt us the most. I will do as you ask, and pray for you! I’ve seen so many miracles happen through prayer, that I can’t help but pray to my Father. When you are alone, it is God who is near. “Draw close to God, and God will draw close to you” James 4:8 Don’t look at your situation as God has a plan for you.
A friend just told me that when a train goes through a dark tunnel, that you don’t just throw away the ticket and jump off the train. But you sit still and trust in the engineer. Likewise, when we go through dark seasons in our lives, we must understand it’s part of the way to our destination. Just sit still and know that He is God!
Praying for you Luna! God bless!
thank you 🙂
i believe, this earth is meant for heaven n hell, worst thing is i am in hell n i am unable to get into happy part of earth…i had a feel, it’s better to quit if u r not fit to play by that u can avoid all the tragedy of this game……..pray fr me at-least i can get painless permanent sleep.
Anee,
To be in hell is to be away from God. To be in heaven is to be with God. Your are correct to say you can have heaven here on earth by being with God. Though killing yourself won’t solve the problem. You should read this.
I’m praying for you! God bless!
thanq….ryt nw i vl start to be with god.
Your more than welcome! I’m just an instrument that God chooses to play. Without somebody playing and instrument it will make no music. I’m glad your decided to give it to God. He will transform your life and fill you with peace even in the midst of trials! God bless you Anee!
wat u?? god or sumthing? pls stop preaching & let people die. let them be Free
ur right bro. imma die now. imma be free bro. imma die
Hey,
I know you replied as Jaden as well. But freedom only comes from God. To die before knowing Him will send your soul into unter darkness to a lake of burning fire. It’ll hurt more than a physical burn because it will be a spiritual burn that lasts the rest of eternity. It is far better to just obey God and ask for forgiveness, why be so selfish? Try it bro. Even if your mad at God, tell Him.
Hey,
“Now the Lord is the Spirit, and where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is freedom. 2nd Cor 3:17” To be away from God is hell. Though, I’m telling you that freedom can come here and now, even on this earth. God is everywhere and can come set your heart free from all burdons. Do yourself a favor and just read one more article of mine. I know what it’s like to struggle with relationships or even hospitals bills and shattered legs. I’ve been beat up, sent to jail, away from family on the other side of the world. I understand your pain. I’m here to tell you that God is able! What ever your going thru it’s not God’s fault, but He can help bro. God bless n praying for you!
i am 13 and i read this and go is that gonna happen to me it was relegion that saved you in the end amazing i am muslim i am not bad and some times i want to die too my parents give me a hard time some one plz help me
Zain,
I’m here to help you in anyway I can. I do recommend you at least read salvation prayer whether you believe in Jesus or not. It wasn’t religion that saved me, Christianity will never save people. But God will save people! That is His desire is to connect us back to Himself. The story you read is one of many that are filled with radical miracles. Continue reading as “faith comes by hearing of the Word”. Praying for you Zain, life has just begun for you!
God bless!
Gawd is fake
Zain,
Can you prove the Scripture wrong in any way? Either way, praying for you Zain. I will pray that God reveals Himself to you. God bless!
God does not love me
Kat,
Where does it say that in the Bible? Read the Bible and let me know what it says? Circumstances don’t determine His love for us.
Praying for you Kat
Saved! Saved. Saved? I pray to many gods… and they prey unto me.
Chris,
There is only one God, read about how God is with us and the real prayer of salvation. The Bible says there is only one creator of heaven and earth and that is the same one who rescued me miraculously.
Praying for you Chris
am feeling very difficulty to stay on this earth.please please can somebody help me…i have nobody to share my problems.if anybody is there please tel me
Pinky,
Can you contact my friends here at http://jesus2020.com They are volunteers who can spend a lot of time with your through email, as I’m not fortunate enough to have so much time on my hands. I do want to help, and will be praying for you Pinky. God is able to give you peace, hope and joy back in your life. Trust Him and seek after Jesus. God bless you Pinky! Please do send a message to my friends!
Thank you
Your welcome, God bless you more!
I’m 39 and I’m tired of pretending everything is and will be ok! I hate myself. My family doesn’t care for me much. They think I’m mental, perhaps I am! I am a loser like my father and a drinker like my mother. I wish my life would end naturally. I wish God would remove all sin from the world. I wish someone truly cared about me. I hate feeling this way!
Your life is not over and there is much to live for! God took the desire to drink away from me and that victim mentality. I pray Jesus, give this girl peace and joy once again that she finds all of her hope in You! God more of Your love in her life, so she doesn’t have to seek it from another. You truly all the source of all things good Lord, help us to see that. In your name Jesus I pray, Amen!
i screwed up mmy life i just want to die
God I ask for peace, love and joy to surround Ralph’s life! Show him purpose and give him vision for the future! For Ralph is blessed with so many things around him! Thank you Lord for restoring his life and the relationships around him. Strengthen his trust in You, Father. Put people of encouragement around his life. Thank you that hear my prayer. In your name Jesus I pray!
I feel so low and down. It has been more than six months since my best friend and I fought and she still refuses to talk to me. I tried many ways of reaching out to her, but she still refuses to. I feel upset and wonder if god really exists and hears my prayer because I am really hurting a lot.
I tried to kill myself five months ago by cutting my wrist, but before I bled out I had myself taken to the hospital. I learned that my best friend refused to talk to me even more because of that. I forgot to mention that the reason why I cut myself was because she was so mad at me that she told me that I can take my life and she won’t care. Those words were like daggers that pierced directly to my heart.
i try to pray to god to heal this friendship, or to at least provide closure on this friendship. I keep praying but i never got any answer. I am losing hope, i am questioning if god really exists, because i don’t feel heard. I feel alone and taken for granted by god.
Leaving your family and friends behind early is never a good idea. I’m glad you choose life and to hope for a better future; because there is a better future for you! Have you read any books of the Bible? They speak volumes on relationships. I too have had great struggles in this area, but I have learned that if somebody doesn’t want to be with you, then don’t try to force it. Also, don’t try and depend on any person too much as there are too many problems that could arise from that! God is the one in whom we can hope in! He will truly guide you personally. Just because we go through trials in this life, does not make it God’s fault. It is satan who comes to steal, kill and destroy…not God! He cares and loves for you! Spend time seeking Him and joy and peace will flood your world! Said a prayer for you too!
So, When God kills a mother of 7, leaving the Dad to fend for the whole family alone, God’s being mysterious again? F That.
I’d like to break some lies that have been put into the eyes of the public and even to so many churches. God is not a killer of innocent lives for “satan comes to steal, kill and destroy”. God doesn’t even tempt us and partakes in no evil thing for He is holy. “When tempted, no one should say, “God is tempting me.” For God cannot be tempted by evil, nor does he tempt anyone; but each person is tempted when they are dragged away by their own evil desire and enticed.” James 1:13
Those people who say God works in mysterious ways are actually mislead by living in the old testament or ignorant of His will by not listening to His word. “The mystery that has been kept hidden for ages and generations, but is now disclosed to the Lord’s people.” Col 1:26 It doesn’t say anything about God’s will being hidden any longer but just the opposite. That is just one of many verses that reveals this truth.
I said a prayer for you, but would like to know how more specifically I can pray blessings over your life?
please, i still want to die!!!!!
Mienie,
Can I ask you what’s going on so I can pray specifically. There is much to live for Mienie, and know that I am praying.
I believe I will take my own life. I do not believe it’s a bad thing for what I have done for other people supporting them and bring them back to the Lord. I died in the hospital 3 times and I did not want to be revised.
I suffer too much now. I cannot work. and lately I’m scared to leave the house. I’m ready to see my Father.
I replied Carroll but I ask that you also check out this video https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XKTg_INHgpc
Hey Carroll,
I really understand what it’s like to not be able to walk and remain in consistent pain. I shattered my leg in over 25 places and wanted to goto heaven asap, but if you’re still breathing you still have purpose. I’m praying for you Carroll, God is Healer. Do not lose hope, read the Word of God and He will guide you. Read this story about how I broke my leg http://45.79.203.169/life-after-death
I also want to die, my life is colourless and there is nobody to hold my hand. I am totally alone and want to see god and ask some questions that why did you send me on the earth. I dont want to live and want to die. I know suicide is very bad thing but I have no any way except this.
I’m sorry for the pain you’ve experienced, but that experience won’t last long. There is hope and there is a plan that God has for your life here on earth. ‘Draw close to God, and God will draw close to you’ James 4:8. He wants you to know Him and there you will have peace.
Jesus I pray for Darpan that you bless their life and give them hope and purpose. Jesus that the sorrows of this world are temporary but eternity is forever, so teach us to see as you see. Thank you Jesus and in your name we pray. Amen.
I’m depressed. I feel that life is worthless. I’m a gambling addict. I lost everything and in debt. I am also jobless and homeless . Living on the street. My life is full of failure. I dont want to live anymore.
Jesus help Jason where ever he may be. For it is you Lord who give us hope and vision. You O Lord are the God of restoration and we thank you for sparking hope in Jason as he is worth it. You came down from heaven to earth to die for him. Heaven went bankrupt to pay for you Jason! In your name Jesus we pray, Amen.
Thank you for doing this! I am awaiting news on my seoosnrpd child of 13 years Love. He is a wonderful young man who loves the Lord, his family, and me very much. I am sending prayers, thoughts, and my love to him and his family and hoping to hear some news soon.
Jesus we ask for favor upon Aritonang’s life and family! God you hear there prayers and we thank you that you’re hand isn’t too short to help them. That your desire to good for them is greater than our own. In your name Jesus we pray, amen!
i just want to die what is the most painless method
I would imagine, it’s of old age, peacefully in bed after having fulfilled a life of purpose while believing in a future for eternity. Praying you find and fullfil such a life in Jesus name.
don’t do it you even if you have constantly given people everything!
I pray that God gives you hope in Him and you see yourself the way God sees you. You are worth so much more than the way you’ve been treated. I know God loves you and wants to bless you more than you can think or imagine. Praying for you in Jesus name.
there is a point in your life in which you believe the end is near/ People are fools in general and i Hate all people
People can make life difficult but God can bless you with a self reliant attitude that isnt determined by the effects of other people. Praying for Jesus to make your identity known to you which is found from him.
It’s been almost 6 years since I first got an thought to die softly. I mean ‘softly’, probably referring to ending up my life quietly, without that much pain, ideally I think, my death should hurt no one.
But you see, I am still alive, and between these years, I did read a lot things about suicides, but came out with no impact on me, neither push me further nor punch me back. However, I’ve got a biiiiiig break on my shit life through quiet living and constant thinking back. I am searching for the meaning of my own life, sometimes I do care a little about others’, but it sicks me when I finally realize there’s no point etl. We fall on failures, and rise on self realizations. It’s that simple, a true belief in heart can save one’s life and bring him hope, but it’s what he is going to change about himself that do save himself forever. Feeling painful this way? Then why not change it, to live a comfortable way for yourself, there’re tons of tons of alternatives. You’re free to shift your own life. No one can stand on your way. I don’t think a life style change will starve you to death, no way! So do change it and save yourself, I am fighting on that now, hope you join me!
Theres no need to end your life or starve yourself. Many would be hurt and care for you. Praying you find your purpose in Jesus. He truly is alive
imgonna kill my self
There’s more to life, trust me. I can understand what you’re going through but there is hope for a future. Praying for you to seek the help needed to live a long and fruitful life. Things can change for the better in an instant.
I love somebody nd that is my aunt! I don’t know how it happened. I met her in 2011 nd after a year I had a crush on her. It’s been 5 years now I love her more than anything else! She’s my everything! She didn’t know that I love her. I just told her a few months ago that I love her! Nd since that day she isn’t talkin to me properly. I’m so heart-broken! I even told sorry many times nd she said she will talk. But still she doesn’t talk to me! Now I can’t take it anymore! I wanna die! I can’t let my love be angry with me! I’ve had enough! I’m a Muslim nd I prayed so many times. I fasted all the 30 ‘rozas’ in the month of Ramadan at the age of 16 ( my current age)! Now plz tell me an easy way to die!
I will be praying for you that you can find peace and hope in Jesus.
Hi. Ive been suffering with depression for about a year now and I think I have run out of answers.
My friends make fun of me because of my ADHD, my parents always yell at me and my teachers hate me and give me terrible grades and bash my confidence. I am almost 12 and already think its the end, can you help me?
Hey Luke, I’m not able to help in the way that Jesus can. Praying for you to encounter Jesus like I did. He is able to heal ADHD or anything including cancer. It was God who healed me when I shattered my leg in 25 places. I was told I’d never walk upstairs again, but prayer changed that. Jesus healed me and I’m praying that He can heal you and give you the confidence and focus you need to succeed in all the areas of your life.
Fuck make believe religious nonsense. If finding religion made you not want to commit suicide then you never wanted to in the first place. If the message in a bullshit religion gives you reason to live then you`re not really a live, you`re hollow, empty and meaningless and filling that with lies and garbage. The world will be a better place when religion dies, all of it as it is all a load of shit.
Kevin, no I wasn’t looking for God or religion of any kind. I’m still not a fan of religion in the sense of being controlled to have rituals which are meaningless. Something radically changed in me when I experienced a personal God, a living God, Jesus. Jesus is a living God for the living not a dead god. Praying that you will encounter Jesus like I did.
If you think god saved you than you are a fool. Everyone knows that god is just a way to explain superstitions and chance happenings. Don’t anyone believe a word of this religious crap. Religion is a plague spread across 100 generations. Infecting and disabling science and the pursuit of truth.
I guess you can consider me one of those who truly believes then. It’s not because of a ignorance as I’ve done my studies. There are a lot of scientist who don’t agree with the theory of evolution. I am no scientist, but I have seen a lot of things that no scientist can explain. Seen hundreds of people healed by the word of a prayer in Jesus’ name, including cancer and deaf ears being opened. I challenge you to continue to seek for the truth. Allow your hunger for knowledge to be your anchor. Praying for you Miles.
I know God is there also….but I can;t find him…..I am lost….I have prayed and asked for him to come into my heart and save my soul….but I don’t feel anything…..I have lost my lust for life……I don’t understand why I can’t feel Gods hand on me…….I feel so alone….I must be evil or not worth saving….I don’t know.
I just know that God is real…….so maybe this is my Hell…my punishment for my sins.
God isn’t waiting to punish you. The Father is a good good Father and He cares for you and loves you. There isn’t a person alive who God doesn’t love. It’s His will that “none shall perish” and goto hell. Hell wasn’t even created for people but for satan and his fallen angels. Satan is the one who continues to whisper lies into our mind that turn us from God. God saved apostle Paul who was a murderer, He can save you. Continue to seek after God and you will find Him; that’s God’s promise not mine. Praying for you.
this world is a hellhole so there is no goddamn jesus
Unless God didn’t want to force us to love him. We have free choice, and that’s why we live in this mess, which is our own doing. I’ll be praying for you Nat.
Whats wrong with wanting to die? I just don’t want to stay any longer in this shithole? I don’t like people only family car for you and I don’t have any. I have a wife of 43 years married who has lost interest in me, I have a son and daughter who I rarely see. I sit looking at a computer screen all day, I am hopeless at games. So why hang on?? What is the point? I am 76 done what I had to do, now I want to go.
Brian,
I’m so sorry you are going through all that. You have worth and value. I will be praying for you and your family. The way God see’s you is that you are of such great value, that He gave His only son to die for you and pay for your sins and mine. God loves you Brian. I’m praying for you.
My situation was hopeless me and my husband was on the verge of divorce. I was in a awful state and felt that I was not able to cope with life any longer. I found out about this Dr Lawrence and tried him. Well, he did return and now we are doing well again, more than ever before. Thank you so much drlawrencespelltemple@gmail. com Thanks and remain Bless
Ms. Tiana,
I’m glad you were able to get some help for your marriage. Remember also, that a 3 cord strand is not easily broken. Meaning that with God in the middle of your marriage that you all could overcome so much that we face in this world. God bless your marriage.
I’m only 12 and most my life has been me getting bullied and cyber bullied. At age 6 i was getting forced into marriage by my dad. I lived on the streets for almost a year and my mom gave me and my brothers to my dad. My dad abused me and threatened me to not tell anyone about it. I’ve been thinking of ways to commit suicide. I cut my arms. I tried to strangle myself. I tried to take an overdose. I tried
to starve. My mom found out about my depression last month and tried to put me in theropie but honestly made me feel worse. Last week i tried to hang myself but my friend stopped me and 5 days ago i tried to get hit by a car but they stopped driving. I need help i don’t know what to do i don’t know how to stop this pain or stop trying to commit suicide. I’m scared of myself. At school im the biggest target and everyone wants me to die. What do i do? Im so lost.
Alyssia,
Nobody wants you to die! I dont understand why your dad mistreated you like that but pray that he stops hurting you and that you are able to get restoration. You are of great value and worth. Don’t listen to the lies from bullies or ones birthed from depression. I pray to God that He sparks dreams and passions in your life that lead to peace and purpose. You are strong and are an overcomer. With Jesus you will be able to enter a place of joy even in the midst of trials.
I honestly don’t know what to do. My family is at war, with me and my sister in the middle. My sister blames me for everything that has ever happened to her. When I was younger, I would pray to God all of the time to help me and guide me. At first, I thought that he would help me in my times of need, and he didn’t disappoint. Then I had to move. My mother finally had gotten some meds to help with her depression, everything was good… then it all changed. About a year ago, my mother had quite taking her meds… and she reverted back to her old ways. (Punching the wall put of anger, whoopings, etc.) Then came what I feel as the emotional abuse. She would tell me to suckered in my gut so that she wouldn’t have to walk around with a fat daughter and so that I would not disappoint her. I believed every word. And now here I am. A random person who gets bullied at school, for not being good enough, and a pushover. A random person who is currently tying about her life on a website.
Savannah,
You are worthy to be loved. I know God loves you so much and i pray you see yourself the way God does. I’m so sorry for the problems going on in your family, but God is able. Continue to seek after Jesus as He really can change your life like He changed mine.
Just tell why we should live?
I believe that in this wrold there is no love ..i dont believe like those things and there is no creator we just came in to existence and i have no idea why to leave because i have no intrest in money fame or any other thing exepectiing from others.
Just tell me what the motivation are desire that its moving you to live because nothing is permanent in this world.
I was like you, I didn’t believe their was love in this world either until I discovered God is a personal loving God who truly does care. I’ve seen so many miracles that I can’t help but believe. Praying for you Kedel to know God like I know Him.
If there’s anyone out there getting bullied contact my email I will come to where you’re at and help you straighten out the situation
Interesting services you are offering. Not sure violence with more violence will make things right.
This entire post is bs.
Living is miserable right now because everybody in this world is selfish, greedy, manipulative, and pretentious. Every person of the world is in the devil’s clasp.
US society is the most oppressive on earth, next to China, and the people in this country actually believe it is “free”. But when someone truly tries to BE free, every hypocrite who preaches “freedom” steps out of their way to oppress them!
I wonder whether you actually obey the teachings of jesus or just claim that he saved you?
“They honor me with their lips, but their hearts are far from me.”
There is no freedom to practice one’s beliefs here. There is no freedom of choice.
There is no truth in the hearts of humans in the world. I for one am sick of it.
Apocalypse is happening.
“None are righteous, not even one” We are all sinners and by no means do I claim to be perfect, but I know the one who is. His name is Jesus. We can’t look at religion or the church for help. The only one who can save is Jesus. I know you’ve heard this before, but until you truly know Him, it’s impossible to have that ‘peace that surpasses all understanding’.
I’m only 13 and I have suicidal thoughts like stabbing my self or taking drugs to overdoes I just want to die I dont know my dad and my mother is missing so I live with my grandmother and nobody knows I told my friends about it a long time ago but they forgot please help me what should I do if anyone has any idea of what to do plz text me on Instagram at Ariellee_mccormick05 thank you bye
Hey Ariel, there is so much to live for. I know life can be hard especially at your age, but it does get easier. Praying for you to find the one who calls himself the Prince of Peace for Jesus is the answer.
Hello.
Hello Mishael, praying that Jesus blessings you with long life and peace.